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2010 is already halfway gone

2010-07-26T10:14:00.000-07:00

Oh good God!!! Its already 2010 and July is almost coming to an end!!! Its gonna be my birthday in 3 days. Wow!!! Time really do fly... And what have I done for myself...Basically, not much!!! DAMN IT!!! Its time for me to work out a list of things to do and not waste it away like that. I will never retiree in time to travel the world...

After 2 years...

2009-11-21T18:55:00.000-08:00

It was a bad Sunday morning to start a fight...In fact, in any case any fight at anytime is never a good one...It really felt like it was not settled since last night after my Dinner and Dance...Wanted to join my colleagues for some fun and drinks but it was INTERRUPTED by you know who... I admit its my fault, I did not make it clear that I wanted to go out after that...All I could hear was someone needing me...Yes, I was disappointed...I wanted to drink...I wanted to scream, laugh, talk crap with my friends...but in the end I ended up in another person's place just because I dont want any more fights...I am tired and fucking sick of it...All that crap just makes me want to puke...Flashbacks of friends telling me that having a relationship was not easy and fights are always happening...made me wanna laugh...Wooo but now...its true...its fucking true...I feel I lost my freedom even though I feel its me that allowed it to happen... When was the last time I had a good time drinking and not worry about anything?? Hmmmm, yea it was when she was overseas, I had my long awaited night of freedom, peace and FUN... Am I not matured enough? Am I that playful? I dont think so...seriously, I dont find myself drinking or partying till I dont go home or not meet her when I am suppose too... Yes, there are times when I was still having a hangover and I still met up with her but at least I know I have an appointment. God...like OH MY GOD... things or anything was so much simpler when I was single... I fucking wish I am like NOW!!! I love to drink and get high...Is that a very difficult thing to understand...after reading the post I put up 2 years ago I was like...hey this god damn problem is still here...WTF!!! Its drinking all along...not partying, not womanizing, not overspending...its drinking... Yes, at times I would like a nice quiet night at home, cuddling, kissing...doing what little couple will do...And at other times, I want to go out...have fun...drink till I puke my guts out...which by the way is not what always happen...But, you know what? I get affected by you...I get affected by the way you feel... I can just hear what you say in my head everything I go for drinks...think about it...is it worth to get worked up everytime I go enjoy myself?? Must you count the time I go and dont go to drink? WTF, what is your problem? I dont revolve around you...I really dont... I have a life...I have a thing called friends...Seriously, I would really miss you more if you dont care about me so much... Seriously, humans are that cheap and it works for both sexes... If you give me the freedom to go drink and have my fun...I would come back to you feeling that I love you more...Wah my girl is cool, she can really let me do what I want...That is really what I want...thats all I need...

blogging in a LONG LONG time 21/07/2007

2007-07-21T00:14:00.000-07:00

hello blog lol .....its been ages i see... frankly, i am getting really lazy thats why i can be bothered to be blogging or i just feel that problems in life aint gonna go away even if i write it all out...i think it just sucks...

problems with my gf... that is totally a different level of misery really... the frustrations you can face are those you can ever believe... before i had one i can never understand what those attached ppl can face...OMG!!! I know... i know what it means to consider the other party's feelings when you do even the slightest thing.... going to a club just to have fun without your other half? OH my HOLY god its a HUGE mistake... you have to even watch what you fucking say and not be so "Insenstive"... its really a chore...no kidding... its like when i am single things werent so complicated at all...its was lonely and when i see couples on the streets it just feels like shit... but now that i am attached for like more than a year and the half i feel that it has came with sacrifices... i wont say i am not happy with my other half but sometimes when i would wanna have fun and go drinking with my friends, she just dont get it... after a few rows of fights just because of this... she sort of like given up...now she says i can go for drinks but not as often... well, i feel its always like that...just the way of her getting used to it...

Cmon...i need my friends...i need to hang out with them... i know what i want...so i wont go around clubs to know girls or to have one night stands.... you know? if i would want those things i wouldnt even consider a relationship...i mean what for? i have tons of chicks to sleep with... lets be real here...guys want sex and sex only.... they just like to cum...lol but girls want only one guy...they are emotional...thats how they work... not that guys dont want a normal relationship but girls dont know when to stop being controlling...

its not like i go clubbing and drinking every night and dont bother about her...told her explaination but she just doesnt get it... if she wants a guy that doesnt drink and wanna have fun with my friends...she might as well find a loser that has no friends or even better a life... so he can be with her all the time and even when she is doing her personal stuff..she can rest assure he is at home doing nothing cos he is just a loser....

I dont know after the last fight and the explaining, i think she kinda gets it... i know she hates to go drinking and staying late sitting at some bar or fancy pub...well, i have tried to bring her along and hopes to let her see the pure fun i am trying to have with my friends... too bad after a few times she cant take it...she just gets reall bored and we will be fighting again... after the demsey road incident...i swore to myself never to bring my gf to any place with drinking and my friends involved...its just such a let down...i have to constantly pay attention to her... if she doesnt drink its worse...but anyway, i have learnt to to mix those two together... its never gonna work...i think unless its with her friends as well... but still i would have to look out for her all night... i m sure something will cock up no matter how well the arrangements are.... girls are trouble at some point of time especially when you least expected it...

so advice to myself... listed with some points i got from the GOD Tom Leykis...a US radio talk show DJ...
1. Never find a gf until you achieved everything in life
2. Never find one when youre like below 30yrs old(for guys)
3. Never set a standard when you are dating her..be an ASSHole
4. Let her know all though you are with her...you have choices...shes not the only one
5. Leave her if she does not want to have SEX with you
6. Never promise her you want to marry her....NEVER, its crap
7. Let her know you have a LIFE and you NEED to be out with your friends
8. Never let her question what you do unless its something illegal...lol just dont do anything unfaithful
9. LEt her know your life doesnt revolve around her
10. wear a condom..always protect yourself
yea thats about it... bottom line never have a serious gf...doesnt benefits the way a man think and work....it jut doesnt...ask your player friends...they will tell you how happy they are...

15/3/07

2007-03-15T12:00:00.000-07:00

hai life is so sian recently...i havent been in my best of moods for a few weeks now... but i chose not to show it to anyone...i would just put on a smile and talk crap just to make myself feel better...i dunno whats wrong with me but i guess its the family crap i have been going through...it really sucks when your parents have the slightest problem in there relationship...when it all falls apart..what is left is just the dividing of property and money...and the children are the ones who gets hit the most... love in there minds is lost forever... i m glad it did not happen when i was much younger...but at this age i still feel the sorrow...i m sure my brother feels the same...although, we dont talk about it but some part of me feels really sucky when we have to hear about it from either party...that is not just all my problems... theres school, what i gonna do after my NS and how am i gonna juggle my part time degree and work in the future...am i thinking too much i ask myself sometimes... i feel i m not... its gonna be a reality in 6 months to come... plus i wouldnt know if i could leave for the States before my permit expires... will my she be kind enough to get me a ticket over there even though she is in bad terms with him? if i have saved the dough for it, will she be angry if i have gone? will my gf be sad if i went for too long? should i forgo my dream of going there just because of a girl who doesnt want me to leave and says she wont want to wait for me? is it a bad idea to promise her that i m not leaving? should i fight for my future instead of leaving it all to the Gods?
there are always all these things i got to think about..i cant tell anyone how i really feel and what i want to do... at times, i really wanna just go and seek out my real goal in life... i dont believe i will starve there...but will i be able to blend into the alien enviroment? will worse things happen there from even the worst that i have imagined? is it my fate that i have to do what i hate the most...stay at where i dont want to... will i forgive myself if i didnt take the risk to take a chance to move there and find a living there myself? i dont care if i am going to be a second class citzens but i would really want my kids to be born there... will my dreams come true? is it in partical to think this way? she told me i have unrealistic dreams and told me to give it up...and she doesnt want to leave her family and friends here...am i wasting her time if we carry on together? should i just stay single until i know what i want and where i want to go? should i tell her she might not be ready for what i want to do in life? should i let her know that although i love her so very much as my best friend and my darling girl, i wont want to see her be miserable because of what i want? will her family bear to let her leave for a far away place with me? should i go out there to get my citzenship before i tell her that i want her to come with me? so that she can have a better status there? is it time for us to really sit down and talk about all these? is she the one i should be thinking of marrying? if all doesnt work out, will i be able to let go? is it better to let her go before we are both too old? is it better to let her fine another man since she is still young?
I ask myself all these questions... none i can give an answer... i want to be different...i want to make it... life here is really too square and boy are we underpaid... from what i see its really not possible to really make my mark here... everything is restricted and there is not a single amount of creative space to do whatever you want...
GOD HELP ME...GIVE ME SIGNS TO LET ME KNOW WHAT TO DO!!!PLS I BEG OF YOU!!!

2312007

2007-01-23T09:40:00.000-08:00

Damn...opps i said a swear word...but i meant it lol... got to catch American Idol season god knows what...i simply lost track of that freaking show...but still it was an amazing show...hats off to the producers and everyone on that show...again, its been proven once again that the americans has more creativity and the freedom to produce a wonderful show...C'mon its a reality series...it is meant for them to exploit everything in it... the first auditions, i should say its the funniest part of the whole competition... they actually took all the lousy, off-tune contestants and remixed them into a Pussycat dolls hit- 'Dont cha'...hell!! it was so funny...i felt a wee bit of pity for some of them, that we are laughing at their bad and terrible out of this world singing or yelling for some...haha but after 3 seconds i thought what the hell?!... stop being so sympathic and act like i care...
I actually tried to recall if we did it on our Singapore Idol but i really cant remember if we made fun of our people cos i remember i did not laugh as much lol...hmmm but i think if we were to do this for Singapore Idol...we might get alots of complains on the forum of our one and only newspaper, The Straits Times...by some unhappy contestants, viewers with nothing better to do or just some cock buggers with letters like, why we not supportive about our people who has the guts to join and we are discouraging our people blah blah... but if you think about it if you are good...who will make fun of you? if you really went for some decent training before you even join. still, some cockster will be arriving for the auditions thinking that he or she can sing and be the next idol of the country, sad to say they usually get kicked out in less than 10 seconds and we will be spending the next one week laughing when we think about how hilarious and weird their singing was...muahahaha if any idol wannabes sees this, you might be pissed haha i dont fucking care...but hey without you the show would not even be a hit... if you can be famous why not be infamous right? lol
talent, talent, talent... we are still seriously lacking of it... our idol champion here seriously wont even last a day in the American Idol where everyone over there sings so much better. yah yah..you will say we are asians la, they more power la cos they ang moh...but look at Jasmine one of the contestants from the previous previous season..shes asian with some pan islander blood but still asian... she reached the top few...ok then you will say only one of a few ma... yea cos there is a smaller asian community as compared to the rest of the different ethnic groups over there... i truly believe we are all the same...we may be different in built and colour but with the proper training we can sing like the ang mohs can or do whatever they can...Yao ming is asian chinese to be exact but he can play in the NBA or Ji-Sung Park from Manchester United he is asian...but he has been playing with the ang mohs for a long time even our local hero Fandi Ahmad was once offered a place in Ajax and besides as you can tell from the show not all of the americans can sing... So all i want to say is we can never set a trend for the world to follow cos we are so small and our thinking is still so old-fashioned and we are so scared of taking risks... i believe we have the talent...unfortunately, we aint got enviroment for it to grow into something we as singaporeans can be proud of.

18 jan 2007

2007-01-18T02:00:00.000-08:00

omg its been such a very long time since i wrote anything on this pathetic blog of mine...lol hmmm what have i been up to? NS, GF, SCH and the cycle repeats itself...lol its 2007 already...omg thats very fast...this year is gonna be a good one i hope...finishing my ns this year gonna plan my trip to the States as well but all its in the last part of the year but i cant wait...now its just my school that i m worry about...constantly, telling myself that i must do well in my school but in the end i m just too lazy and i will defiantly do it in the last min when it comes to my exams...oh god...when will i stop doing this stupid, stressful and non fruitful thing...oh well, i guess a leopard never changes its spot...thats just me man... but how to succeed if you dont fucking work hard?...determination is what i lack and seriously need man...it all boils down to that...
2006...hmmm its been a great year really...known many new friends and did a lot of new things and most of all i knew my dear dear...wow its been exactly a year...we've been together for exactly for a full year...yesterday was our anniversary...wow... time flew by just like*blinks* that...but i would say we been through a lot...but this past year thought me a hell lot about being in a relationship...i should say it aint an easy job... lots of stuff to consider whenever you wanna do anything... sometimes, i really feel like just surrendering to the mighty power of love...lol and let things be....let natural take its course...its less energy wasting that way...i know i have more to learn and more will come...we will either go up a level or plunge right down...i dunno...but shes a wonderful partner...simply love her to bits but sometimes just feel like popping her head with my bare hands...lol tats love i guess...a total mix of all the feelings you can ever have or you never thought you had and feeling it all at once...lol oh gosh....but i love her and dear, i dont mind that you are fleshy...anyway, its just youre just built with bigger frame, not like our typical sinagporean girls who are relatively smaller size...of cos i want you to slim down if you can...its healthier and you can wear any clothes you wish....but i just like the way you are now...you are loveable in your own unique way...thats why i like you in the first place...thats why i still do now...you silly baby...so cute...*pinches her cheeks* muahhaha.... everytime, i think about us i would feel really sweet and warm...so nice to have you as my partner...i finally found a nice girl, who can relate to whatever i say and think... i really cant find another you...i really doubt it...all its 230am already...time to hit my sack...lol

lifes so sian and sucky

2006-07-19T07:07:00.000-07:00

Hai...hows life? its ok...cos work sucks...always got to find transport for my bosses...you may think its a small thing, but its the begging of ppl thats sucky... i was taught to go bond with the other NS guys so my working life will be much easier...but i dont know...where got so easy? everyone got their own things to to...own life to lead... sometimes, when i cant do it, i feel i m a failure...it sucks really...i really have no idea what to do... hai...maybe i will try from now to bond with them so they can help me...cos maybe they think i only find them well i need them...which is bad...but thing is i never have that kind of thought, if i can i would never want to trouble them or whatever... God, please help me...
my tiredness has grown back on me... i m really tired... tired of just meeting the same person all the time... i really need my friends...i really need time with myself too... this sucks..i always think its all understood... but its seems its not... so i m feeling very fucked up...you cant have too much of something... fuck it...i m going out this week to have a drink...i dont want to feel like a fucking caged animal...fuck!!!

Bright and sunny day outside TRACOM

2006-06-27T16:33:00.000-07:00

Well, well been a while as usual... hows life? its good...i guess...still living on scraps before the month ends. hows work? you say hmmm..still have around 15 months before NS ends for me..so it aint that good... the only thing that still makes me excited now is the overseas trip that is like coming in a few days...(jumps up and down in excitment) but i wont be seeing my dear dear for a week... i m gonna miss her but it seems shes gonna miss me more than i do... frankly speacking, is it a good thing or bad? a few months back when she was off to Bangkok i missed her like hell...now that i m leaving i kinda think its gonna be the same way... but its not...weird...
i kinda of wonder is it because i dont like her as much anymore? or am i just contented with our relationship? does it means i have complete trust in her that she will be fine...she wont be out looking for scandals while i m gone...(which i trust she wont) okok...

Seriously, we have been together close to half a year...we use to spend every single moment together whenever we could meet...be it an hour or 10 minuties we always feel we cant bear to leave each other. Well mostly my fault too as i was the one who cant stop seeing her... one thing is for sure...at the end of the date or day, i felt really tired all the time. its like being constantly bitten by a vampire... but the moment we meet, all the tiredness just goes away...

Recently, i feel that our dates are getting pretty boring...we keep going to the same places and we use to have so much to talk about, now its like decreasing... i hate the weird silence... well when we keep quiet for too long i think its weird...i always feel there must be constant talking...i think its wrong but ...damn...i dont even know what i m talking about...ok bottom line we dont really talk as much we did...we do, but its usually small talk... is it bad? hmmmm...maybe i m making a mistake writing this down...i should be talking to the source...my gf about it... yea i will do that... ok case closed..........fuck you ...peace out

12 of june2006

2006-06-12T09:21:00.000-07:00

Well, i am back with a new entry...lol like very exciting like that. lol

Over the weekend, i withness the arrive of my new couch...yippee!! its very big and somehow i feel its too big for my tiny living room. But its ok i guess, kinda used to the size of that thing. Mom wanted to sell our rosewood set but couldnt find a suitable buyer, there are people actually offering 50 bucks for it. wow, these people really know how to slash prices sia... might as well give it to you better right?...!! What else did i do? oh i went to watch soccer with zhenhao, my bro and a couple of his friends on sat cos baby went for a wedding. after that, we went to sing KTV...damn i think i cant sing liao...really tempted to go for classes again...but its gonna cost a bomb... hai... i think i must learn how to sing again...i think i just need more practice...get my breathing right...lol

Now, for some random thoughts after i read Xiaxue's blog about the United States...To tell you the truth once i saw that i couldnt stop feeling OMG!!! i wanna to go oso!!! too bad i m stuck here for the time being... on the other hand, i m glad that she is enjoying herself... she was talking bout the cool tv programs they have whereby the americans have more freedom to do whatever they want and therefore being able to come out with shows like Maury(a show similar to Jerry Springer). She also talked about the nice places like Disneyland, Hollywood and stuff like that...lol i would really have to agree with her that its a wonderful country to visit... its like finally stepping foot on the places you've been seeing on TV. Plus, she has a friend to bring her around and enjoy the lifestyle of americans..eating food like Wendy's which by the way is one of the best fastfood i have ever tasted when i was there!! Denny's cool too but i only ate there a few times compared to Wendy's... I think its even better Carls Jr... Yummy.... see la hungry liao... actually, i think the most food in LA shouldnt be too bad... dont know if she would drop by San Fran or not... i heard a lot of good things and of course good food....lol

After writing so much...i kinda lazy to talk about their culture...the freedom they enjoy and also abuse..lol i think i will just be repeating myself...i talked about it before...lol so ok la..xiaxue you enjoy yourself and if one wants to go there for vacation...i support you 100 and 1 percent!!! Peace!!! MUAGHAHAHHAHAHAHA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Its weird you know?

2006-05-24T10:54:00.000-07:00

lol it seems i only updated this piece of shit once a month...like the PMS cycle of our female counter-parts...

Thinking back, its not that i dont have anything to write...its just that i use to write everything on this blog but i think i cant now...cos theres too much to write...and so lil time... lol maybe i should build up the habit of writing my shit down on a daily basis again...
hmmm...what have i been up to this month? well, i went to a nice play (Krisnan's Dairy) with dear dear, it was really nice, funny and refreshing.. most importantly, is that she likes it.
Dear dear and i also had our first clubbing session with Andy, Leoel and her friend Cindy..lol... Although, we had fun but somehow i feel that i cant drink that much anymore... i think, i am really getting old now...lol and now really, i cant play for two nights in a row, its costing me too much money and energu man...will feel like hell the next day....
Whatelse ah? oh, i signed up for the UOL degree program in SIM but now when its time for me to pay the first Semester of tution fee i am thinking of backing out...lol cockster right... to tell you the truth i am really sick of studying but no choice i got to do it anyway...gonna find another Uni cos its where they have more projects and assignments or i will die in the process of studying wor...
Wah...but really sia, i must control my spending...PP all gone now only got a wee bit of cash now...like poorer than ever...shit man... seriously, must cut down on the expensive lunchies i been having...sucks big time... now i want to go catch X-men 3 also very hard loh fuck loh... a man without some money is good as fucked...no money no honey...hai.... tell me what to do so i can save some cash... or not to spend so much... few hundered dollars per month only wor...now i say i wont spend so much but when the pay day really comes i sure spend one...sucky sucky wor... got gf somemore...go out with her, go on dutch oso not enough..sia then go for the occasional drinking session...fuck think i must really only drink in coffeeshops or buy from NTUC and use my NTUC card for points...kns... now want to smoke oso must think twice... only when people offer than can smoke...pathetic sia...leading a dogs life...fuck...

just one more week, my office will be moving to old PA...sucky sia... going home from there is really a waste of energy... hai...sian tiu.... haven pack yet...omg... think after this i will go pack...sian...must throw away as many things as possible...ok lah got to go...BB

2 May 0858hrs

2006-05-02T09:36:00.000-07:00

Haha... been a long time since i wrote anything... lifes been great i guess... nothing too fancy has been going on lately... well...i just lead a boring life...happy? lol

Frankly, I think i have been spending too much time with my girlfriend...i love spending time with her... but i also miss my friends... nowadays, i dont get to participate in the activities they have, be it clubbing or just a normal hanging out...she doesnt seems to be happy if i go out with them, even though she says its alright that i go.. deep down i knows she is unhappy... haiz... i haven met zhenhao for months...sometimes, i really wonder how is he doing...
Am i giving her too much attention, so much that i cant meet my friends?
Is losing your freedom part of being in a relationship?
Should i manage my time better?
i m really lost...
Is my life now really revolving around her only now?
Do i really need to meet her so much?
Or is she just too dependant on me?
there are tons of questions bugging me and it seems theres no solution to them... i know that she needs to learn to let go of certain things...
Am I giving in to her too much?
Am I too willing to do things her way instead of mine?
But she use to be so sad when i m out with my friends drinking that she will tell me how much she misses me and stuff...to me its really alright...cos i miss her alot too when shes out with her friends...
Should i let her know everytime i feel she is too dependant?
Will we fight?
Will she think that i dont take her seriously?
The more i think the more i questions i get...how?

Planning KTV night...lol

2006-04-13T20:22:00.000-07:00

Yesterday was such a long day, went to work at around 7am in the morning, went to have Ba Kut Tay with Mr Tay n Mr Chen...lol I dont know i was really full so i didnt really enjoy it... after work I had to rush down to my aunts place for dinner and to bring my mommy home... and after that i went for my long awaited singing section...lol Although, i didnt sing that well but at least i had fun fooling around. My way of relaxing...lol only thing was that booze was missing...and that dear dear couldnt go...cos she wasnt feeling too well...thats about ends my day right there...lol

Anyhow, theres one thing i learnt last night...women are really weird ppl...I just dont get it man... they want you to tell them everything and anything about your life...and when you dont then get furious and make a big fuss about it...whats up with that...but when they dont TELL us stuff, its no big deal... i dunno... must they know everything thats going on in their spouses' lifes? well, i mean its ok for them to know and give advice and stuff...but the worst that can happen is when they use it against them...for example, comparing herself to another girl that WAS ONCE IN YOUR LIFE!! whats up with that? we tell you our past love life is because we trust you girls, not for y'all to use it for fights whenever y'all want~~...god!!

Ok...on the other hand when women feel that something is wrong, they have the right not to tell men bout it... men must try to dig it out of them...and we must be patient and coax them about it... suck cock!!! hey wait!!! in the mist of typing something struck me...we are all the same!! we dont the same shit to one another...

All of us have lil secrets in our lifes that we dont want people to know... All of us would only reveal them to the ones we care about.... All of us need a bit of coaxing from our partners to find out what is wrong with each other... There is no point in BLOWING YOUR TOP when you are not getting anything out in from your lover... And of course, dont simply give us asking, maybe they just need more time to collect their thoughts or for whatever reason they have... When they want to tell you about it, they will... Now, the ones who are spilling out your problems, its better for you not to bottle up your feelings...i knew it from the hard way...lol and this is for both sex to take note, i guess the most important thing for all of us is to have constant communication with you lover...don not keep the unhappiness in too long...talk bout the things that affects your relationship...i think keeping them in just adds on to the annoyance of whatever shit that he / she does and one day, it might just explodes and no one would want to clear it up...and i bet when you think back on what really costs it you cant remember...lol oh well, just gotta say BGR aint easy shit...lots of responsibilty... if theres not any...i rather you not to waste your time...See ya ...peace...btw the way i hope can go have some drinks later... Dont know Lanie free to meet not...lol

Sleepless...hope i sleep after this..tired....

2006-04-10T02:12:00.000-07:00

Its been 3 months since we have been together...everything is fine really...we have our ups and downs from time to time, just like any other regular couples i guess... we've been meeting everyday for 3 months straight...lol shes been really supportive when i m down...thats really wonderful and stuff...put it this way...i simply love the time i spent with her thou sometimes i cant stand her temper..she can get really gan chiong and with my 'relax la' attitude its not a good picture...get what i mean? lol... but boy she really need to chill down sometimes... being that worked up really cant make things go any faster or the way you want darling...anyway, i still love you very much... my world is all about you now...i cant tell you how long i will be with you but i really hope its gonna be a long time... and even if its short, i really want you to know you brought light to my dark life...

Actually, come to think of it LOVE is really a combination of happiness, anger and saddness...i dont know its just what i observed...one minute, you can be angry at the person and the next minute you can just forgive her and be happy all over again...lol amazing right?

I know sometimes i might be blur blur or wishy washy, specially when i drive(i m working on it ok?)... but its not like its easy to make certain choices when it comes to the person i care about... i dont know maybe i m not very experience in relationship... but at the same time i want to be the perfect boyfriend... its easy to say...come on be yourself thats enuff... no being myself is not enuff... i have flaws...i m never serious, careless, insensative, lazy even...if i be myself i dont think you, my darling can take it...we will be always fighting and it will all be over...trust me... i wont want to waste my time to be on a relationship which has nothing but fighting...

i like to drink and club... not always la and surely not recently cos super broke...fuck NS pay like shit... anyway, its been a part of my life even before we met...so i dont think i will stop... i know you dont like it... but what can i do? you are afraid i meet another girl there... cmon...with my looks i cant even get their name let alone knowing them further...lol besides i m not that charming and cool lol... so dont worry if i go club... let me tell you something i make the choice whether to make the first move or not..you know? if i dont approach those bitches, they wont even look at you... i mean i m not saying i m the king of clubbing but thats how it works...guys have to make the first move...its kinda sad but it is how it works... dont know how many times i must tell you but yea its all up to me...

well, you said if you dont care it means you dont take me seriously... we might as well end it... i agree...haiz... i cant stop you from worrying, the only way is to keep the part of my life all to myself cos i know we can never talk bout it... its never gonna end...lol i know you wont stop me if i tell i want to go...frankly, i think all couples should have some free time...some time of their own...private to him or her...its not like a dirty lil secret more like their own space to enjoy by themselves... i m sure you will feel that i m a jerk if i dont allow you to go out with your gal pals or complain that you are not spending time with you right? you will just think i m too obsessive... thats not good... maybe the saying absence makes the heart fonder... so i wont ever stop you from having fun with your friends and i really hope you wont too... the other alternative is we go clubbing together... lol but seriously, its gonna cost a bomb plus i hate to mix girlfriends with friends it rarely work... i wont want to be focusing on you when i m with my friends then what for i ask them out in the first place... and i wont want to talking to them all the time and neglect you...it will just add stress between us during the clubbing session... i bet you wont want to do the same too, cos its so hard to be juggling so much shit in a night...disgusting...thats why girlfriends and friends never works for me at least... so i make it a point not to club with my girlfriend...man...m i talking too much? lol...but the chance of you seeing this is quite little, i just have to tell you along the way... lol dont worry i m not complaining i just like to put things here, so i can recollect my thoughts...but if you do read my blog someday...please let me know...lol

now to commitments... remember there was once you asked me if we will always care bout each other... or something like if we will be forever... lol tell you the truth i wanted to say yes, but at the same time i know we are still so young... it might be over just like that... unless, we are sure we are gonna get married...but its so not possible cos i m in NS... and i have no stable income even after 2 years... and i still wanna study for a degree or something...so its so hard to reply...and i said lets take things one step at a time... and you were looking quite sad...i think its really true what they say bout girls they love sweet-talking no matter what they say... they are just too emotional... which reminds me of another saying, men they have sex first then they will love but women love first before theyhave sex...lol girls are just too emotional sometimes...that really explains why all the jerks get the chicks cos they know the rules of the game...lol anyway, back to me... hmmm... i really can see us together for a long time but i have no confidence in being together for 10 years... its really long long time... we might just break up tml or 3 to 4 years later... you might meet a better guy, why? there are so many reasons why it may happen... or we might just call it off, cos we both think its not going anywhere...nothing is impossible... as for now...i really want you know is i want us to be eternal...(romantic? lol) its true honey...

We had several fights...but the one that really sinks into me is the one where we were really pissed at each other when you think i wasnt concentrating when we out with your auntie...what really caused it i cant remember...i think its cos i shouted at you cos you were screaming on the phone... anyway, you were saying i dont tell whats going on in my life and you make it a point to tell me whats going on in yours...and you cant stand it when you need to keep on asking how i feel and stuff... ok... seriously, i talk a lot...so sometimes i like keeping quiet and i dont really like to talk bout my problems and unhappiness...i dont know why, its just me... i think a lot of guys do that...in the end, i know its bad for a relationship...lol i learnt it the wrong way... we need to talk bout stuff sometimes...serious stuff esp... how we feel, how we look at things...how we want things to go...stuff like that...it takes time...so dear, i will try to change this bad habit .... i will try to talk things out and not keep them in me...and just to let you know...you keep stuff in your heart too...and i have to dig it out too...and you want me to coax you lol aiyo...please la no games please....it will just drive me crazy...come to think of it, its frustrating too...lol anyway, we agreed no games...we are gonna tell each other if we're unhappy bout certain stuff... its never healthly to keep it in...

ok, i shag liao...need to kun...maybe i will write some more next post...or maybe not...good night ppl...peace(got gf not easy, yea la i newbie la...werent you one too?)

Monday raining day

2006-04-03T07:21:00.000-07:00

Wow... been a while since i updated this... hai...too busy man... with wat? work and life i guess...
Last weeks highlight was working overnight from wednesday to thursday evening...why? because we had to fold 6000plus letters in less than 2 days omg!!! Actually, i only came in from 11plus on wed night to thur evening... but still it really felt like a very long time... Ben stayed the longest he stayed from 7 plus from wed till bout 5pm on thurs... basically he worked for like 36 hours straight and he slept less than 3hrs...omg!!! i really salute him...but all of us knocked out for all most 12 hrs after that... i remember sleep so well that my mom told me i was snoring...lol
oh and my weekend was alright... got a few invites to go drink...but i couldnt...low on cash and she wont like it ...lol so i dont know maybe in the next two weeks i might go... maybe can meet up with elanie and gang... so long dint see them liao...only read her blog...she seems happily with her garfield lol...cute name for her bf lol...then went out with dear dear on both weekends and kinda got started reading Anne Rice's novel... still got quite a lot to go man...lol

hmm... this week just began...i hope it goes well...ok peace ppls....

Zoo outing write up

2006-03-18T16:13:00.000-08:00

It was a nice and sunny saturday morning and I went to the Zoo lol... kinda planning it since 2 weeks ago, as soon as i go my pay Shirleen dear dear and i went off straight...lol seriously havent gone to the Zoo in like a decade, thats a long time... but frankly, it was really fun. Being close to mother nature and scent of animal dunk...lol it wasnt as bad as i thought you know? Anyway, we saw lots of animals(tiger, wild boor, elephants, rhino and goats) just to name a few. oh yea, i ate alot that day, must be the walking... i was practically looking for food everywhere. Must be all that walking...

We bought the tram tickets together with the entry tickets but the funny thing was we walked for almost 3hrs before we even used the tram tickets lol... i think we only took it for half an hour or so...lol anyway, after all that we headed back to my place and i was totally drained, cos i was drinking the night before slept for only 3 hours before the outing...omg...lol ok ppl enjoy the lousy taken pics...

zoo outing 7

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zoo outing 6

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zoo outing 4

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zoo outing 3

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Zoo outing 2

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zoo outing 5

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zoo outing 1

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Sian

2006-03-08T10:31:00.000-08:00

Hai...wtf my office email is so farking laggy ....how to work? lol as if i work...but still i need it to work properly ma...hai...another day alone in Planning...sian...Sista elaine?!!...When you want to go drinking?...lol

LOL LOL LOL

2006-03-06T00:16:00.001-08:00

After last weeks Staff Assistant course, my mail box was flooded with shit...lol sian...just a wild thought, I THINK ITS TIME FOR ME TO QUIT SMOKING LOL...

lol yes la....

2006-02-27T19:08:00.000-08:00

Haha...darlings coming home tomorrow, omg finally loh!!!! soon i can see her...missed her so much wor, just wanna hug her tight tight...lol...kiss her all over...lol...so many things to tell her wor...

haha...final installment of the gang

2006-02-26T20:54:00.000-08:00

Jeremy(above), Kenny & Weiliang(below)

Me and Shirleen

the gang indiviually...lol

2006-02-26T20:50:00.000-08:00

Irvin(above) and LiangXi (Below)

Hsien Long(above) & Kenny(Below..acting cool)

Gang at Sentosa

2006-02-26T17:12:00.000-08:00

The gang...(i think weiliang is checking me out)

WEiLiang!@!#?!! Ewww...

Look here people!!

And SMILE!!!

Gang at Sentosa

2006-02-26T17:01:00.000-08:00

Group Photos...

I Miss My Darling Poi Poi

2006-02-26T13:00:00.000-08:00

Its been five days since she left for Bangkok,Thailand... Still gotta endure for another two days before i can see her...oh my god i MISS her so much... i m going CRAZIE...haha...

Another crazy night

2006-02-26T09:48:00.000-08:00

Another week of work/NS is finally, over... cant tell you how relieved i am...lol the weekend is almost ending... what did i do? did nothing on sat cos haha went to drink on friday night, it was truely a crazy night... we went to three places to drink that night, drank till about 6 in the morning...omg, that was one of the most i ever drank...
Ok, first andy and i went to meet leoel and his friends at Zouk at around 11pm... but some stupid thing happened, the fact that we were late wasnt really the worst that happened. Leoel didnt get his zouk chop after he got his tickets he came out straight away... apparently, the bouncer didnt check his ID the first time...but he couldnt get in even thou he had the tickets...what they needed was the zouk stamp... what else could he do? he could only go back home to get his ID...so the rest of us proceeded in to have our drinks, not much dancing mostly drinking...lol i think we stayed only till 1plus cant really remember...lol Andy suggested we got somewhere else to drink, cos the place was too crowded for our liking...and we ended up in a pub in Boat quay, by then Khaliq leoel's campmate was drunk...shouting and walking in a snake like manner... must be the long island we all had...lol he was totally wasted man! anyhoe, we had another round of drinks... we were singing, talking crap to the staff and a couple of guys sitting beside us... i think we were dancing too...lol yeah dancing in a ktv pub... haha, come to think of it, we were really out of our minds...but as soon as the Rnb songs came up, all of just started dancing... the waitresses joined in, it was really crazy...
just before closing time, one of the girls suggested us to go to devils... i was like...omg...another round of drinking... i can feel my tummy going...ENUff!!! but in the end we went, along with two other waitresses... well, it was just like any other clubbing scene but just that we were truely and really drunk.... personally, i could not stop drinking... my head was pounding, my legs were tired from all that standing, dancing and walking...
Phewwww.... thank god it was time to go... we all drank our final glass of liqour and left the club... frankly, i could never have gone home in a cab that moring, i would definatly throw up... so Andy and i kinda waited for us to get sober b4 we took a train back home...
As soon as i reached home, i slept till 5.30pm until andy called me and woke me up for dinner or something... but i could still taste the alcohol in me, it wasnt the best feeling in the world... lol
That was basically, my friday night out...lol Sat was spent mostly in bed because of the hangover...lol

hello

2006-02-15T17:32:00.000-08:00

Hey all,...lol Valenties day just passed 2 days ago... mine was alright... nearly dint have the mood to continue... sad right? but its ok everyday is a Vday for us...whats the point when youre unhappy all the time youre together and only feeling happy on that one damn day right?...but still i hope all of the couples and singles out there had a great Vday this year...

Lifes been good, but fuck just got down with the flu again!!! must be the late nights and early mornings... arhhh...i hate to be sick...i m so weak... got this sentosa trip tomorrow somemore...dont know can make it not...sian...
now got some extra cash ready no health to go drinking...fucks...always like that...

dont know what to write le..so laters...

Chinese NEW YEAR~~~

2006-01-27T20:27:00.000-08:00

Well folks lol...long time no see... havent been updating this blog since god knows when...lol sorry la... been really busy with work and my sweetie...lol anyway, its the Lunar New Year!!! Yeah!!! finally, a holiday...omg!! can rest at home sleep late for a few days...haha

Work in PNSD is alright to a certain extend. Not really that tough but it can get really boring sometime...lol Like they say nothings perfect right? Nearly a month since i got posted their. Frankly the people are really friendly andI'm not having a big problem fitting in. We are like a big family. I'm sure there is a dark side, well you know its a office and there are people, so people politics are bound to be there...lol Oh well! lets wait and see...

Hmmm ok i got to go...see ya..and Wish all my friends a Happy Chinese New Year, collect as many ang baos as possible and stay happy and healthy!!!!

Da New Year 2006

2006-01-09T21:18:00.000-08:00

Due to my constant lazyness...lol dint really have the feeling to put up any post recently...lol plus the fact that i dont know what to write oso... but now i know...Its gonna be a recap of 2005...

What was i doing in the first quater of last year? I was still studying... last or extended year of my poly life...lol cant remember if i was working part time or not... i think i was... at lerk thai ba...lol school was ok i guess... didnt have much friends cos all of them graduate le...hahaha... working at lerk thai was fun... meet very cool people there...Henry- the gay, Shirley- da jie da, Desmond - the best manager ever, Jek - the Ah beng lol and the kitchen staff there...we were like a big happy family...yea it was tough... but it was worth it...
Then, as usual i was clubbing...at that time was ChinaBlack... it was a cool place...not now... lol got to know Elaine, Amy and the gang of crazy clubbers...lol Then, i fell for one of them which turned out to be a disater...i dont know...maybe we were really not meant to be...

June came and my family and i went to the US..for a holiday before my enlistment... we went to New york city, visited the great Niagara Falls...till now the sight of the tonnes of water rushing down the falls is still in my mind... Had a nice time there... lol... so nice that i gain weight... and pimples...fuck right!!? when i came back, i was lost cos gonna be enlisted soon... all i did was relax, went drinking and slept later...kinda wishing the days will pass slower...lol but there was some good news along the way i passed my poly exams and i went for my graduation...lol
Finally, the day came...13th of Sept 2005 Tuesday, i was enlisted in the Singapore Police Force...
And for a month, i had pure physical training... it wasnt as bad as i thought... i still can manage...lol most of my IPPT stations results improved.. alot!!! haha i oso didnt know i could make it... lol

From October till December...I continued my police training... it wasnt really that relax as most people think it is... anyway... made lots of friends there... and met the best supervisor sir Alex Teng... yes he maybe beng but... he is really commited to his work and took good care of my squad... if now you ask me who do i look up to..it would be him.... so many funny things happened during those three months... bathing together, eating together, getting fucked my FIs together... those were the times... thou, i slept most of the time in barracks...i really enjoyed the training...but i wont want to do it again...lol ok this is a brief summary of my life in 2005...

Now its 2006, we all had our POP parade on the first week... but it didnt happen cos it was raining so heavily... and a BBQ just last sat... it was kinda last of our gathering together as a squad although, there were some who couldnt make it... we had lots of fun that night...it was just like how we were in camp...acting gay...smoking...rubbing one another to the beat of the music... haha... theres one thing I need to say... Guys, I may not be the most popular guy in the squad...i think there are sometimes when i feel like an outcast...but I really gonna miss the times we had as a Squad 48/05... Si Chap Bui!!!!
Ok now that we are all posted to our respective posts... some NPCOs, FIs, SAs, DCOAs, and SSOs... I wish all them the best and hope we will have the chance to get together in future be it for work or leisure... PEace!!

2006... Any New years wishes? me? actually, yea...just want to my family and friends to be happy and health... as for me... i just hope, i can do my new SA job well and stay out of trouble... Other stuff can wait really...lol....till next blog...bye!!!

Xmas over ready for the New Year?

2005-12-26T03:03:00.000-08:00

First off, I gotta say sorry la sista Elaine, if youre reading this... everytime, we plan to meet up for clubbing or anything...in the end we never meet up... i dunno why this keep happening...hope we could meet up sure cos so long havent seen you liao...miss you wor...lol

Ok anyhow, Xmas was ok I guess...On the eve, i caught King Kong during the day and then i had a nice quiet night at home...Kan na sai right? Xmas eve at home wor... *shakes head* long story... anyway, i didnt do much just hung in front of my computer till 4 plus the next morning... Xmas day was slightly better, went out with Ivan and gang... meet them round 9plus hung around orchard till 1130pm...seriously, i didnt know that ivan was cool bout clubbing that night, he was so anti clubbing the other day... I seriously thought we wont going clubbing, but in the end we went to O bar...fuck right? but still the night was fun...

Oh no, gonna be booking-in in bout an hour plus... there goes the long weekends... boo hoo... but next week is also another holiday...yesh ah!!! but shit got to spend money again... haha... Most proberly another clubbing session... I m really wondering what can we do besides clubbing... dont get me wrong, i love clubbing cos can drink... but what other fun thing is there to do besides clubbing...going for countdowns or whatever during the holiday seasons? think....lol aiyo...nothing come out... this is just how we young adults spend our holidays i guess...the hardworking ones will be working part-time cos got double pay...the attached ones will have no choice but to spend time with their lovers... the clubbing ones will of course go clubbing... the single ones...hmmm will proberly do whatever they want...haha be single still better...the ones who plan should be somewhere enjoying a short holiday... the rich ones? haha i dunno...shopping in Japan or Milan maybe? actually, come to think of it...when i was younger, my holidays were spent with my folks...going out during the day till evening, joining the crowds in town... getting pushed around, admiring the light displays and finally heading home for the night... it was simple but i enjoyed it... no complains...lol from my view, the older we grow we dont get contended so easily... but whatever we do as long as we enjoy then its fine, espsecially during the holidays right? lol

Do or let die

2005-12-11T03:01:00.001-08:00

Haha finally, changed my skin... but the programming language really gives me a headache, never liked programming. Why? haha good question, dunno leh... but I know I have a hard time passing it during my poly days... its logic I know but maybe I cant think logically thats why fail and fail...haha ok enough bout my bad poly programming days... Hehe actually theres more to do for my new skin la but I guess I ll take my time la... hmmm suddenly, I dont know what to write wor...maybe I come back later to finish it...lol Ok after a few hours of thinking, i know what to write liao...

A friend of mine once told me, if you want to know how a person's character is, if he or she is a stingy, steady or showoff. It is to go clubbing with them... well, its kinda true thru my experince... I dont know bout you, but with all those alcohol, loud music and chicks somehow it brings out a different me... not that I will go get any one night stands la (thou it will be cool to have a few) but no la i not that skillful...anyway, i think it most people will be the same like me ba... but i really cant stand those pussy-driven friends...they dont take care of their fellow clubbing friends once they see girls... i understand la, guys get horny easily but cmon la you came with your own friends you know! your friend drunk or very high need you to help him a round the club..then you busy flirting with girls...sigh...then those kind who dont know how to zhou ren type, a bit too calcuative and dont know how to return the favour one... like i had this friend, we went to a pub and a few of us decides to open a bottle of liqour la bout 150 bucks...then this fucker whips out only 20 dollars and says hes just wants to drink 20 dollars worth of the drink...diao want measuring cylinder not? omg no money then dont agree to share and open a bottle la... all of us feel like telling him off but not to damper the night we all keep quiet and continue to drink...sigh i think i love the showoffs type one the best...why? cos usually they like to showoff in front of girls ma, got free show to laugh at why not? then maybe can get some free drinks from them... then, there are those kinda who loves to get into fights one...omg thats scary man...yet to come across this kind...hope i never!!! actually, i think this kind quite difficult to spot leh... cos you never know how alcohol affects someone... lol but i think the safest is not go clubbing with ah bengs, full time ones...lol and those with bad tempered bastards...lol

And there are those people who are steady one, those very on kind of people... they will drink with you, they are not stingy bout who pays more... if you want to know girls, we will both do it together...and if youre drunk or high you need not worry cos they will give a helping hand... that is what i call fun... I personally have a long time friend, he is in this category... usually, I go clubbing with him la, bout 80 percent of the time you know... but maybe hes a good friend and we kinda hang out most of the time...so yea...lol m i making sense?...lol anyhoe, there are all sorts of people in this freaking world la... so the main thing is to take care of ourselves when we are clubbing or doing anything...lol if you cant drink anymore...say you cant drink... unless you really want to get drunk last night la...lol ok gtg... have fun clubbing this holiday season...early Merry Xmas!!!

oh boy sick again!!

2005-12-03T03:44:00.000-08:00

Yes yes... I m sick again! bad cough and blocked nose...it seems the ever-changing weather has taken a toll on me...everyones falling sick in my squad it seems. See! we are so close that we even share our illness together! Haha... Oh man... I think I better stay home today and rest, besides I m broke. Yea, Gavin always broke one, dont know where the money went oso... Should start saving some money, for future wife. HAha!!! with the miserble pay I get? I think I need at least 20 years. Ok...maybe not for a lifetime partner but there are a couple of things I've been thinking of buying - MP3player, new clothes and new shoes...Yes thats bout it, I guess?! Arhhh how I wish I can go shopping for whatever I want!! But what I really need is time to do it, not much of it when you only see the world for two days a week. People are just counting the days before we all pass out, I m just not thinking bout it so it will pass faster...lol well thats how I work...

Well, not much happened this week besides the IPPT test I had, sad la that one, only manage to get a pass not silver. If only I could jump further, but that fucking Fitness Instructor(FI) oso idiot one la, second time I jump at least 230cm then ask me to jump again!!! I landed properly what!! Chee Bye!!! so I lan lan jump la, then 205cm...then I m like omg!!! then wah he took my worse score!!! chee bye he know how to do IPPT not? haiz... no choice, so I fell under the police law(Lan Lan Act) again. Rest of the stations get 5 points but oso no use...sad!

To tell you the truth I never had a good night sleep in PA before! Yes! Never!! I always wake up in the middle of the night. Either with bladder full of pee or half of my body was numb. But the other night, I think I fell the bed shaking and I woke up. Its like really shaking, it was mild but the fact that it woke me up was kinda irritating!!! Then I was trying to fall back to sleep, then I thought maybe its my buddy below moving so didnt really care. The next day, recalling the incident, I thought the bed didnt shake side to side, it shook kinda like from forward to backward. Its kinda freaky... and while Gavyn and I were going home, I spoke to him bout it and he said he had experince before but he think is just his buddy below tossing about. I really dont like waking up everynight like that, I feel so tired the next day... but if the shaking is not something supernatural, I hope it stays away from me... and let me sleep omg!!! I respect these things so HELP ME God!!! or maybe its just my imagination...but I dont wanna find out!! lol ok thats bout it for me need to go get some food...lol Later!

Another walk in day

2005-11-27T20:33:00.000-08:00

Wow..been a while since my last entry... Like anyone cares?!! haha...I know people read my boring blog, although I do try hard not to write boring stuff. haha! Hey people! if you think reading all this is really a waste of time to you, please let me know? Cos I dont know unless I ask right? Ok enough with the nonsense! Class! Please flip to page 27 and we will begin!(slaps) I say enough you idiot! Ok sorry!(Lame)

What should I talk about? I really dont know. Hmmm... I got my marksman in shooting? I think la. From what I calculate with all the aspects combined. And next wee, which is tomorrow(OMG) I m having my drill test scary!! I hope badly I can pass and not make a fool out of myself!!! AH!!! I think its the bad experince I had during NPCC, that drill test was a nightmare. I remembered shouting my lungs out and my squad cant hear me. Proberly because the god damn band was practicing so loud that day. Sigh!!! I dont know... God give me some confidence please!! I need it so badly!!

Ok enough bout my freaking NS life... You know sometimes when you see some of your playboyish friends who are attached and they still go find other girls? I think thats really disgusting, but what can you say when he tells you his exciting love life? Fuck you it doesnt concern me? Maybe some people would, but usually people just sit there and listen like who doesnt like hot gossips? Its not just a girls think ya know? Yea so, I would think this wont happen to me I wont cheat on my girlfriend if I have one...the thing is when you ask them why they cheat on their girlfriends, they give you this answer,"when the feeling comes, it comes you cant fight it mah. Aiya! you not me you wont understand one la" Then you will be like "yea right?!"

Actually, seeing cases of unfaithfulness be if it happens to a girl or guy. I came to the conclusion that I wouldnt be that faithful too, at some point of a relationship. I will still have the urge to look at other girls, go out with them, flirt with them. Why? Cos all of us human beings, somehow we wont get contented with whatever we have in life. When you see someone better then your current girl/guy and during that point of time things arent going really well and this particular person pops out, and gives you the love feeling again. Wont you sit and think whether to continue or leave? Or when your partner isnt that caring or senstive anymore? They take you for granted and stuff like that. More examples? lol possesive till you cant breath and you find out you have no more friends at all, this usually happens to girls la. Maybe got guys like that oso I dont know... Or they change into this jerk which you do not know anymore and treats you like dirt? But the funny thing is when girls get treat like that, they still want to continue the relationship. No idea why!! Anyway, to end this never ending topic... nobody say it was easy to find the perfect lover, cos people change, things change nothing lasts forever and its a fact. So people try your best to cherish what you have no matter how hard it is. And if you know you aint getting love from the slut or jerk. Leave!!! Like the chinese say : Chang tong bu ru duan tong!!! Be heartless a bit la...!

OMG...sick boy

2005-11-12T18:20:00.000-08:00

Haha... I feel so bad cheating my brother for the computer. But how can you blame me? he was hugging on to it since 2pm. About time for me to use loh. Kaoz... anyway, I wasn't able to use the computer cos it kinda broke down last night when I came back. FUCKING HELL!!! No internet!! I should have gone out but I didnt cos I was feeling kinda sick, restless, dont know what is wrong? Thinking of going to the doctor...maybe tomorrow...lol... Its a Saturaday, I should be going out later. Where to? I have no idea...lol maybe a movie, kinda hoping that my squad are meeting for the England match later tonight. Oh well, these things arent really in my control right? Actually, I'm still feeling kinda fucked. Who knows? I might stay home!!! (You think I lost my mind ah!!!) Of course I will go out! Its the weekends wor!! Furthermore my mom might start to talk to me about things I dont really know or even care about(Sorry! mom but its the truth).

Caught Jay Leno just now, it was so funny! He never fails to make me laugh, that bugger!! haha... How cool it would be if Conan was broadcast here too!! Dont know if i want to say this a not, I think I might be repeating the fact that we(Singaporeans) arent creative enough, like we were ever creative. Ok the thing bout the show wasnt bout the jokes he made or the big stars he gets on his show. It was really bout the things they said, it was the fact they make it so unrehearsed, so natural and for that I enjoy watching it. No matter who the guest is(unless the person is really ugly or boring), the conversation they have is always interesting. They talk bout everything under the sun. Not like the boring show Gurmit Singh had - Tonight with Gurmit, which was a poor copy of The David Letterman Show. I should say it was really night to watch at first but later I found it really bad and lame(sighs while shaking my head).

I really think the Americans really put their heart and souls in the shows they produce. If you guys ever watch Jay Leno, you can really tell a lot of thought has been put into the sketches they put up and the jokes they make. Not all are good, I admit you have to kinda understand the culture to understand some of them but most of the good ones are really funny. Take the one I saw this afternoon, it was this automated photo taking booth which had a lady telling the people who goes in to do really random stuff. It ranged from taking in off their jackets, not to kiss while their photo was taken to ordering them to sit down even though they have. I swear the average american was really Dxxb or maybe just naive. I dont know!@ Anyway, I like the show and really hope the singapore media could do something bout the boring soap opera and variety shows we have. I think the ones we have now are from the Jack Neo family one and the Econ minimart one...Ewww!!! We are so way way back!!(yea 2 ways back) Ok la I understand bout the government restrictions oso la but please loh people, see those kind of show till sian loh. We dare say we are highly educated and we still come out with such sub standard shows.

Ok enough of complaining again(the typical singaporean way). We have the famous two Cs - complain and compare. Kinda tired already you!? ok laters!!!

nothing special

2005-11-05T15:16:00.000-08:00

Not much happened this week besides the constant holidays and booking outs lol. And the drinking lol, not much la only twice in a week. How can my pathetic NS pay support this kind of entertainment. So I guess next time its the coffeeshop...SIao!! Anyway its nice to club once in a while and drink yourself silly... its a stressful world we are living in. Well, its a Saturday, no plans as usual. Might hang with haos. No idea what he wants to do. Lets hope its something cheap. If nothing goes, I ll just stay home and be a couch potato...lol Ok its time to eat hungry liao!!

No title

2005-10-30T05:45:00.000-08:00

Been a while since my last entry... been so busy with or maybe stuck in PA...either way i wasnt around my computer... the whole week was fine but the most exciting day i think was on friday, i got to shoot a revolver...omg!! my heart nearly came out...ok maybe its nothing compared to the M16 my army friends have... but hey!! that was all i got right?... although i did get marksman for the first frame which i m kinda shocked cos i thought i did badly... but i will try to get the hang of it the following times... i hope*prays*

ok anyways...last night, i saw two teenage guys just maybe 18, 19 years old holding hands in the public(cineleisure)... like couples yes!!! omg! i guess its fine to let people know bout your sexual preferance...but aint it a bit too obivious...?! ok maybe they wont gay...but logically speaking...guys?! would you hold hands with your male friends? i dont think so... i m not against gays, i do think some of them are really handsome and they do take care of the people around them...they arent bad people... but is the singapore society ready for guys holding hands in public? we are afterall still an asian country... homosexuality, i think is still something we have yet to embrace totally... i think even the western countries havent really accepted them too...United States for one, i dont think they accept gay marriage... its really a sensitive subject to touch on... i have seen guys holding hands its nothing new to me but it was only in gay bars and some bangala workers does that too.. i bet most of you seen that... yesterdays incident was kinda the first for me...

Singapores forever changing maybe 5 years down the road, we will all accept the fact that gay people have the right to display their love in public too... its still kinda freaky for me.. if it happens... guess i must see more of it and i will get use to it.. by then i might say hey! no biggy what...they love one another what! lol...

one more thing...lol i saw this really hott girl at merdian hotel's masterque last night...actually, i saw her walking to it with her friends while ivan, kenny and i were standing behind the busstop deciding what we should do cos we had bout 2 hrs before our started... i cant remember exactly, one of them said she must be going to play pool...lol and before that ivan was saying go play pool and i was objecting... cos all he ever does is play pool if we are out... but last night was different...lol... anyways, that girl was really something... its not cos i m in camp all the time and never seen girls for a long time... well, she is really pretty and the type that i liked... i think she is bout 168cm tall, long hair (a bit wavy, my fav) just above the waist, big eyes, nice smile and perfect teeth...(omg!!! i wish i had a friend like her) with a light green tee shirt and denim mini skirt...simple outfit but she looked wonderful, imagine how she would look if shes all dressed up? how i wish i was the que she was holding...lol... still, she dont have the typical look that most local girls have like rebonded hair all straight...it looks nice and soft and stuff but its really common and kinda unnatural to me at least...everywhere you turn you see it... anyway it just takes one thing to brighten up my day(night) and it was that hott chick... still kinda wish i went up to her... oh well... who call me ham ji...

sigh... going back to camp in 3 hours lol... how i wish the weekends is longer... lucky, theres two hoildays...and i ll be home... lol think bro is coming back from tekong too...lol omg baton test next week... ahhh!!! so many test even in NS... this is really singaporean style... tests and exams everywhere... all bout scores and doing well... wooo... book-in loh...

the new Zouk

2005-10-23T20:09:00.000-07:00

Zouk has reopened... the layout is still the same...well, i really like the new decor and stuff... its more spacious over in Phuture and they have these cool seats which are shaped like our hands...nice pick i should say... the bar switched from the right to the left... its more open now, the air circulation is better... the entrance leading to both zouk and phuture has this UV wall and everything just brightens up the moment you step in... all and all its really nice but the drinks are still expensive...lol not much changes bout that... oh boy time to book in...actually got alot to crap bout but my brain just went blank lol... anyway later...

Only you know yourself

2005-10-15T12:42:00.000-07:00

I know myself i m a crazy, goofy and crappy person... I need to talk all the time, well maybe not most of the time...But I wont like to have a quiet moment when anyones around me, unless i really hate the person or we really have nothing in common... i believe one can never remain slient forever he or she will go crazy... he or she may not be able to express the thoughts and feelings inside or worse no one will understand him or her...

I think i havent really been myself recently, maybe i m still feeling lost in PA... although, we are all still good squadmates, havent really gave troubles to one another but i havent really open myself up to the people around me... i always have a wall built when i m with new people or in a new enviroment...but this time it feels really different, i feel that the wall is much difficult to take down... i know sometimes its me with the problem... its either i find some of them too childish to talk to or i just cant be bothered to be involved...

Clicks are forming and they are getting tighter as the day goes by... i wanna be with the interesting ones but how? must i be interesting too? what if i m boring by nature? hmmm, i think i should really try hard to find myself back and take things lightly... thats the only way i can think of right now... i must find my inner peace and keep a clear mind...

Wow! the first half this entry really very stress sia... shakes head ok must keep myself happy... haha...but talk bout sway sia... last sunday had to do duty for the whole day 24 hours till monday it was fucking tiring...but whats worse i had to partner with Tommie Khoo our squads MC king... dont know he faking or is he for real...but through the 24 hrs i spent with him... i think he is really a mama's boy...i wanted to tell him off but dunno la i think hes not worth it... i kinda had the feeling that it was going to be hell when a part of my glasses fell out for no reason... and its like after spending minutes with that complaining bugger...

he is either coughing nonstop or saying he needs to shit...and he wants to find a clean toilet to go to... Kan ni na bei chao chee bye la... sighs... seriously, he was getting on my nerves and the things that came out of his god forsaken mouth omg!!! felt like slapping him... worst than the lamest things that i have to say... all this thoughts is really making me flare up again... so i wish him all the best and hopes he leaves PA for good...

Ok the rest of the week was fine... the best thing for me was that we were able to walk out...lol... at least theres the weekends to look forward to...lol ok nothing more to crap bout ....latas

Have you ever?

2005-10-02T20:17:00.000-07:00

Have you ever thought what is life all about? Whats the purpose of living? NO! this is not a suicide note. Haahaa... Like what are we living for? Money? Love? Or just to reproduce?
We are first born then raised and later if we are lucky we get to have our own kids. After all that we grow old and die. Thats the general idea of life right? But what are we suppose to do along the way? We go to school, get out of school or for some of us we drop out of school, then maybe we go out to the real world. We get stuck in the real world like forever, working for our three meals a day. As for some who are born with a sliverspoon in their mouths, they might have to worry much about money. Now for those of us who arent rich, we worry bout money - how much to spend? how much not to spend? Things like that bother us every other day right? I know money isnt everything, but we have to face the fact that we need it. We do live in a world where money talks and all else just walks. Opps I think I got abit off track here, back to the topic of the Have you ever thought of whats life all about? You know people as I was trying very hard to write all this shit, cos I have been thinking bout it for sometime now. But as I was writing, something just hit me like since we are already here we should just make the best of it. Enjoy the time we have in this world. Enjoy the beauty of this world. Enjoy the love of your friends and family. Enjoy the quiet time you have for yourself. As the saying goes time flies when youre having fun, so have have fun but if things are going wrong in your life, bear with it cos you know its all gonna be a part of life...

Week 2 in PA...the journey continues

2005-09-24T19:00:00.000-07:00

Ok, the second week was alright I think, as for the training it was still tough I think especially after the weekend break. I was sleeping well on the first night back, woke up and felt like I only slept for an hour. As for the rest of the week I dint sleep well either...lol there was always this pain on shoulders everytime I wake up. Terrible feeling...but it goes away after the first PT session...lol two more weeks before the fit squad comes in. Gotta grab myself by the balls and bear with the boredom...sigh...
Well, its a saturaday evening, dont have anyway to go... or is it that I dont have the mood to do anything? I dunno what to do with my time, a drink with friends? A movie? Go club? What else can I do? Who can I go with? (shakes head). Who should I ask to go out? You think I should go out or just stay home and slack? Go out need money, need to know where to go...need to know what to do, need to know who to go with or else its gonna be boring... I'm thinking too much arent I? (nods) Actually I kinda want to drink, ok set...Go find people to go drink and relax...!

And the journey in da camp starts...

2005-09-18T20:03:00.000-07:00

First off... the very first week of my life in the academy, hmm... I think it was still bearable... in my heart i was constantly nagging bout the waiting... hey!! people I have not much flesh on my butt, sitting on the hard floor/roadside/road...my poor ass... the soarness... I'd rather be doing training, time pass faster this way. I'm still wondering bout the training I'm goonna have tomorrow... those FIs said last week was only a beginning to the shit we were gonna have...I guess we will see... I hope I can take it... Advice from friends was just to do whatever they say and have a positive thinking bout the training... endurence and tolerance... body still kinda soar... especially me arms... ok its time to go... and yes saw Elaine on friday and saturaday... Shout out: Hey sista you really got prettier since the last time I saw you... stay cool...see ya around... bye people...book in time lol

Time for enlistment...like now

2005-09-13T07:13:00.000-07:00

haha going in like now... kinda excited and kinda sad cos...like i ll miss me bed and stuff... dont know PA inside how one...got policewoman in trainin not?..hmmm...dont think so...all guys...all rules... dont know how long to settle down...but one thing i m sure, time will fly by...lol

I love Rockstar INXS

2005-09-08T17:38:00.000-07:00

When I first saw the ads on Rockstar INXS, I thought its just another reality series, thats lame with no depth what so ever... opps i did it again...judging a reality series by its cover... I think I only manage to catch the show from the 5th week or was it the 6th week(cant remember)... the contestants were wonderful...maybe more than wonderful... they were near flawless, perfect...some of the rendition they sang...oh my god!!! just let me know and I will be their fan...
I personally love Mig and Marty...I hope they would be the last two at the end of the whole season.... i can definitely see myself to be a fan if either of them were to go on to be the lead singer of INXS... Rock n Roll is really cool, come to think of it, Beyond- a band from HK was once my favourite band in secondary school... I was also introduced to Oasis and Aerosmith, oh my god Steve Tyler...hes da man!!! but its not until I was 17 that I switch to Mandopop and hip hop songs...maybe its something new to me and I admit that I was hooked to the catchy beats... actually I listen more of the English songs than the Chinese pop songs... cos chinese songs are more or less the same... all bout love... the main theme is always bout love...omg!!! lol... kinda got really sick...pukes... rock songs do talk bout love but they could also sing bout life, the world or maybe just a song with only the four letter word... lol... hip hop songs?..well its all bout girls and booze, basically just having a good time at parties, you know!! lol... some of the songs have no meaning at all... People just love the beat and the feel of it...ya know!?
Singapore should have more support for our local bands...Rock and roll, hip hop bands whatever... Mediacorp should really plan for some Rock and roll tv series or competition... something new not just bubblegum pop singing competitions... if the bands are really good... people are gonna give them support no matter what right? We've got an idol and a superstar already, why not a Rockstar?... maybe there might not be a big market here but everyone starts small...right? we might just find a rocking band that could reign over whole of Asia or maybe the world after a few seasons? or maybe not but we can still try... I mean the growth we have in music is more important than anything we might find right? its just a thought, but hey its music and it suppose to make people feel good while listening...and they could talk bout it after a certain gig... more local concerts with locally loved bands for locals or whoever...isnt it cool? then there will be another place for us to hangout...lol

Finally, i m feelin better now

2005-09-07T16:12:00.000-07:00

Actually, I should have wrote all this much earlier...but i was having second thoughts bout putting my feelings on the web again... cos the last attempt kinda screwed me up...plus i was lost and still recovering from rejection yet again...*sighs*

Anyway, I think from april till july of this year really sucked for me... why? all because of my navie thoughts bout love...haha..thinking that giving is better than receiving... during that time, i thought it was all gonna be worthwhile...Boy!! was i so wrong!! but now i can think clearly now, without all those love hormones clouding my mind...yippee...really guys!! i dont think theres another as dumb as me... knowing that the girl has everything else in her mind but me and i still do things for her and spend all my energy on her... fucking stupid... should have gave up the moment i knew i cant have to the chance to screw her...*shakes head* sorry to all those ppl who told me to give up and move on haha...i didnt listen... ok come to think of it, her attuide towards me, like she said has always been the same... (shall not go into the details or else this entry will be very long...)...but i was too convinced that she was playing hard to get... thats why i never stop trying to win her heart... dumbass move!!! on the other hand, it takes two hands to clap... if she would rejected me from the moment she knew that i actually liked her and shes still waiting for her ex boyfriend...and not continue giving me hope that something might happen between us...ok reasonable doubt, maybe she did tell me to give up... i think it wasnt firm enough, so i thought she was joking or just that she didnt tell me her true feelings, reacalling all the conversations we had, she was thinking most of the time, even if i talk bout my feelings or stories, she will change the topic back to her life...haha i think she wasnt interested in my life or my thoughts what so ever...seriously, i think it might change alot of things if i was pushed away hard or whacked hard...haha(i m those kind of people who has high pain tolerance)... frankly, i was really confused during those few months... it was really like hell for me... with all the images of the past few months flashing through my mind now, i m still feeling dumb for investing all those feelings... yes i admit...recently, i have been running away from any chance of meeting her... cos the very thought of seeing her again, we're still friends i guess...but it still kinda makes me feel uncomfortable and dumb, i know i dont feel as sad now as i do before, still the feelin sucked...and i hate it... i really wish she didnt know how i felt... and i never did all that shit to think that she will be touched...cock!! ok i shall never talk bout her anymore... shes as good as a closed chapter in history!

i really suck at reading signs from a girl... i can never know what shes thinking... if she has feelings for me or not...i m so fucking ignorant...god!! thats a skill to me or maybe its just common sense to some people... take my ex for example, my best friend told me she likes me... and i m like no way... how can she like someone like me?...so ugly and all the bad things you can think of... and he was like ok! lets wait and see... yea he was right... fuck right? not saying its a bad thing to like me...but its just weird how he knows all this... we only went out a few times for a movie and sms each other at times... ok maybe plus we bummed quite a few times before we went into a relationship...why she will like me just like that? funny right? its fate i guess... it didnt last either... like they say: hao ju hao san... oh yea i know i need to really open my eyes, heart and think if i really wanna read ppl not just girls... lol

I gonna stay out of the boy girl thing for a while... but if i ever like another girl again... you wont see me putting it on this site... unless shes already my girl hahah!!! i m gonna be hush hush bout it... lol who am i kidding...with two years of NS coming... havin a girl waitin for you is just a dream that might never come through... lol...hey this funny thought just popped up...when not in a relationship a guy will think bout girls, a girl might not think bout any guy... when in a relationship a guy will still think bout girls , whereas a girl just thinks bout the guy...lol think bout it people!!!

Seven days

2005-09-06T19:50:00.000-07:00

Ok its going to be exactly, a week, seven days, 168hours, 10080 minutes, 6040800 seconds before i report to the Police Academy...*laughs* trying to make it seem like a long time... ok lets chuck that aside i m going whether i like it or not... oh well...
i think the biggest news now is Hurricane Katrina...okk maybe its an old news already...but i dont know...looking at the death toll just climbing, the number of homeless and the crimes... its hard not to think... imagine, its Singaporeans facing this kind of natural disaster...lol what am i talking about? if we were really in that kind of situation... most we would do it just whine about it on the newpapers or our Speakers corner... cos our PAP government would put everyone who protests in jail before you can say "Si mi tia ji?"," whats going on" in Hokkien... i dont think singaporeans will start looting stores or start scolding our prime minister on national tv... a tiny country like ours will stop working just like that, if anything big happens... i bet you... but in the states its different.. the US open is still going on despite the Hurricane... the rest of the country is still working... what to do? the States is a million times larger than us... lets just pray nothing will happen to our tiny little land... but it just hit me...will we have enough food if this ever happen? if we do how long can we last? if our lifes is affected... how long can we hold?... even the most powerful country is having such a hard time to recover from it... how bout us?... oh my just thinking bout it...!!! ok tummys making noise time to go for dinner...

Busy saturaday lol

2005-09-04T14:15:00.000-07:00

Ok maybe the title a bit misleading lol, maybe it wasnt that busy just more fun?... woke up round 12 plus lol...went for lunch with Zhenhao then what did we do after that? we decided it was a day to go blade, just the two of us like boring..so i ask my bro to tag along...and we were off... wah they it started to rain... not very heavy but it still kinda spoilts the mood, do you think so? but i havent gone blading for a long time, so afraid i will fall and land on my ass, as you all know i dont have much flesh over there so will be quite painful lol...lucky i didnt fall pheww.... ok so we bladed for an hour or so, i personally wanted to go longer lol... soon after that, we headed for Burger King... it was still kinda early like 6 plus so we were think where to go after that... and my bro said lets hit the gym... diao... gym leh... he scared i wont be exercising in the near future is it?... Zhenhao said ok too... so no choice, i was the only one left... we all went home to get our stuff and went to the gym... spent around an hour over there before it closed at 8... actually, the gyms quite fun coming out feeling tight and fit lol... maybe, must go more often...2 twice a week? lol but seriously, need someone to tag along or else i wont go lol... i rather stay home and to push ups lol... ok then later we still felt the day shouldnt end just like that, so i suggested KTV!!! frankly, i was a bit tired but still energetic... maybe stay home too long... and so we reach town round 10plus, sang till 2plus... Elaine came too... think i long time no sing so much... sounded like fuck... sigh...sad... still we all had fun...i guess lol... went to have some supper and we went home... tired sia... lol... sian la, going NS... bye

Back in Zouk haha

2005-09-03T14:47:00.000-07:00

Yesterday started out well... besides the pouring rain...lol, stayed at home for most part of the day...only went out in the evening... my bro and i went to Tampines for dinner, later played some pool with him...and Zhenhao join us moments later... didnt have much mood to play oso..cos they not my match haha... kidding la... anyhoe, we got kinda bored and decided to get ourselves drunk... so we called Leoel our long time friend for a drink... met up around 11plus and proceed to Zouk, got lost along the way but we managed to make it lol... actually we didnt want to club la, just wanted to have a few drinks and go home...lol but it was super packed even on a friday... so we had our shared of drinks and i puked,only because the long island tea had this effect on me when i took it all in at once... it was embrassing...arhhh!!! yea so after supper at Newton we headed home and thats the end of our night out lol...ok byebye oh yea btw i still feel Zouk has the best RnB ever...ZOUK RULZ!!!

Gone in bout 3 weeks

2005-08-24T15:17:00.000-07:00

Yup... time is passing by really fast lately... in bout 3 weeks, i ll be in the phase of my life where i will be spending 3 months in National Service... gonna be hairless lol... Woo!!! save a lot on shampoo... right now, i m feeling both excited and scared...excited cos its gonna be a new experience and scared cos its NS... who knows whats gonna happen...right? lol oh well, thats the life of a singaporean guy, you need to do it somehow or another... hmmm, lifes kinda the same old shit nowadays, never really did anything constructive...dont go out that often...just staying home, locking myself up lol...boring hor? i m a lifeless guy really lol... i dunno...wanna do a lot of stuff but like i dont have the mood... a friend told me its always like this before you go NS... so maybe hes right...lol havent been blogging much lately, kinda rusty lol... maybe i ll have more to say tomorrow?

Omg its friday

2005-08-12T03:21:00.000-07:00

Omg time really flies when youre having fun...lol Well not really fun, but you know... I could pretty must keep myself occupied for a week or two, just by staying home... Hmmm let me see, ok I think the most I did was go down for lunch...lol the new computer and SCV...they're the problem...Life's just watch and playing and surfing....muahahaahaha..save alot of money?? no it didnt...thats because I went out for drinks during the weekends...Tell you the truth, I rather stay home play game or go play pool or maybe just a nice movie... Drinking too much can kill ya man!! Ok besides the drinking, I caught Wedding Crashers with Ivan and gang lol... God damn it was so freaking funny and kinda kinky too lol... Rachel McAdams(female lead) oh my god!!!Shes just getting hotter and hotter... Shes just beautiful man...Oh My God!!! I m a fan now! lol... Suppose to meet with Elanie on wed, but something came up...gees...it was Mom lol... Wanted to meet her so bad, boo hoo!! Why? Cos I had a present... muahaha!! Ok just kidding, but I really wish I could make it that day...sigh...gonna wait for her party now...Aiyo havent buy her a gift...lol All righty, its time to go...bye

Long time no blog

2005-08-07T07:06:00.000-07:00

LOL i m back... first off i m 21 now... an adult...phew... living for 21 years without dying lol cool... lol ok not funny... how do i feel now that i m 21 all of a sudden? nothing i guess just the fact that i can finally go into certain clubs lol... how did i celebrate my 21st birthday? lol nothing biggy just a nice dinner with some friends and shot some pool with them lol, healthy lifestyle... presents lol yea i got some...a really cool watch from mom, shirt from Ivan, Irvin and Weiliang and plenty of birthday wishes from friends and from some unexpected ppl as well haha... glad that i m still remembered in this world lol... yea thats all in the past now... i m waiting for my 22nd lol... anyhoe, lifes been good all this time since i last blogged...mom got lots of new shit for us...which i m very happy for..thanks mom... they include a new computer and cable... lol so thats the reason i havent got online as much recently... just got my internet done up yesterday lol... but all i did this past week was just staying home, playing games... hit the gym once in a while... saw a movie Seven Swords, which in my opinion sucked... yea basically, i kinda locked myself up at home... i dunno just didnt feel like going out too much cos Singapores boring...lol nah kidding...Spores ok, just that it might get boring sooner or later...lol really i have no idea where to go or what to do...so yea... so sian...haiz... maybe next week i can finish reading my books or buy some more new games to play....lol

OLD friends

2005-07-25T11:52:00.000-07:00

My weekend was alright... Zhenhao and i went to meet up with Suhau for some drinks and did some catching up... lol long time didnt see that fucker le... think he slim down a lot le... go NS is like that one ba... i just hope i go in can get bigger in my build, dont want to be so small size forever lol... anyhoe, after that went to haos to watch vcd... wah kept on falling asleep while watching ta han till 6 plus, finally i cant take it sleep at his place first... went home only in the afternoon lor... stayed home on sunday lol... wanted to go out one but too lazy liao...ok la till next blog...

It was a pouring Tuesday...havent seen that for a while...

2005-07-20T09:42:00.000-07:00

Met up with Amy yesterday... she came down to Tampines lol lucky me... no need to go to town or worse CWP(falls back a lil)...lol anyway, we played a few rounds of pool and i kept losing... hey i m good at that game you know!! weird!?? hmmm... later, she came to my place to get her gifts lol... yup she saw my messy table and hung there for bout 10 mins... had to get her out of the house asap... no one else was at home... later she cant control herself, hits me on the head while i m not looking and unconsicous she drags me to my room and hours later i come out wrapped with only a blanket and crying, how?! yea so i brought her to MRT to meet Micheal cos she got him to send her back, save me the trouble...why not? right...? yea... haha then later that evening, went to Zhenhaos had dinner with him and we decided that since we had not much to do... we should go Katong to bowl...lol but too bad it was full when we got there..cos got some competition lol...saw a lame name... Lord of the Lanes...omg... thats like the lamest name someone can ever think of for a bowling team... so they are looking for the most powerful bowling ball of them all is it? Lord Of The Lanes : The Fellowship Of The Ball, The Two Pins and finally The Return Of The Strike... lame ass... thats the creative shit we lack la... copyin ppl... and that novel was written a long time ago and it already had ppl worshipping it... its just that, now that its a movie everyone in the world knows bout it... anyhow, we walked to Parkway, saw this drama series...Nicholas Tse and Zhang Wei Jian are the main characters...lol called Xiao Yu er He Hua Wu Que... so bo liao as we were, we bought it... went back to his place and watched it... hahahha fucking funny... ppl must go get it loh... highly recommended... ok that was my day... later ppl...

What a week...lol

2005-07-18T09:27:00.000-07:00

I got to say its been a busy week... maybe not the busiest one in my life but since i dont have a job and there were things to do...laughs... Went drinking with Jon and Zhenhao on wed cos i didnt want to club... first time i drank with friends after a month... youve guessed it everyone got very high on beer lol... just beer yup...lol then on the next day, just sleeping for 5 hours i had to wake up to go to CMPB with my Mom and bro... sigh...that was really tiring... lucky i didnt need to drive...lol but i was still freaking tired... we got home at around 3pm and i just drop on my bed and kun till 1030 at night...omg... lol i think i can do a book titled - boy!! do i know how to be a pig 101... then as soon as i got up, Paul sent me this msg asking if i was going... i was like go where? to my shock? My graduation was on the next day...so much for a peaceful night...damn it... seriously, i thought i missed it... i didnt plan for it because i thought i wont be back for it in time... yea i really forgot bout it too lol... i even quarrelled a bit with my Mom over this ...dumb sia... she dont understand how it felt for me to be all blur cos i just got up and had to find out if i could go to my graduation... the invites for my family, the registration date was over and i had to know if i could still go... at that point of time i really didnt want to go, to me it was kinda too much of a rush and everything was in such a mess... shakes head... the good thing was Edwin helped lol gotta thank him lol... he made me feel better, more calm and shit lol... and so i was there on my graduation with my batch of friends who stayed a year more lol... yea my batch all graduated a year ago lol... well, nothing to be ashamed of, right? didnt work hard when i should have... it was a really boring graduation by the way... frinking formal...frinking disgustin plus i was frinking tired... dunno why since when i would wanna sleep once i finish my lunch or dinner... its my book again- boy!! do i know how to be a pig 101... anyhow... it was over and i went home to hit the sack... but didnt sleep much...went to meet Paul and Zhenhao to watch Fantastic 4... hmmm it wasnt as good as i have expected... but i had nothing much to do la... oh yea Jessica Alba...OMG!! drools all over the place... later, Zhenhao and i had nothing much to do, so we went to Momo club to see if we could get in... everyone was talking bout Momo when i got back... actually, read it on Elaines blog la...so had to check it out...and we had nothing to do oso... whats to lose right? yea and to my surprise we were in...fuckers didnt even checked our ICs... what luck...!?! got in bout 1230 and it was boring, had a couple of drinks... listened to some songs from the band and got out... wasnt as fun as we thought it would be... it was a huge club no doubt... but i dunnno just didnt like it... so by 130 we went home... longest time spent in a club... lol then on Saturday which was two days ago... went to Momo again...but this time it was with my sista Elaine...Serena and Elaines friend Andy... so long didnt see her liao... hugged her straight away lol... but in the end we went to Black cos i was *underage...*pls see Elaines blog... yea so we were in lol... it was only 1030 and the place was already packed... i m shocked...should be the free entry ba... must be lol... that night everyone seemed to be having so much fun... dancing, drinking, laughing but i just couldnt bring myself to have fun... maybe sian liao... so i did a lil bit of dancing, laughed a lil, drank a lil more...lol... oh yes...how could i forget, Amy came lol... ask her to go Momo before that...didnt want to come la...then later say i ask other ppl to go clubbing din ask her la...then ask her on Saturday she act tao...wanna go out with friend...dont care bout this friend who she didnt see for a month... still say we were good friends... guys!! girls talk we listen can liao la...guys! if you ask your gfs for sex and they say dont want means they want...so dont care finish them up first... kaozzz... yea and she was there... what happened next? she got into Pro mode... drank a lot...all of us did too la... after the alcohol kicked in everything was fun and happy...lol so every got super high...haha... Black was really our place...most of our friends were there... so it was hard not to get a drink if you needed one... hung till bout 5 and we went to have our breakfast - Elanie , Amy and me... all of us got home after that... as for Sunday..i good boy stayed home all day long...cos tired and didnt feel like stepping out of the house... yup thats my week... its a new week now... all the best for me i hope...please god...prays...ok later...

2005-07-17T18:26:00.000-07:00

Mummy n me

2005-07-17T18:19:00.000-07:00

Edwin, me, Paul and duuno whose that fucker oso

2005-07-17T18:17:00.000-07:00

Me n Paul

2005-07-17T18:12:00.000-07:00

Edwin and Me

Singapore...lol

2005-07-12T17:22:00.000-07:00

Yup i m back for a day now... we went to Orchard for a walk just now, my brother is like..omg everythings so cramped up...i just got home... he went to meet his friends and he was telling me, hes not used to being around so many people... and i was like you havent tried being here during the weekends... to me i m quite used to the switch of cultures plus i was only staying in the US for a month at a time...so its really not much of a difference... its just that over there its big pieces of land and little people around... imagine our NTUC the size of Carefour...thats their size of their typical supermarket... maybe it takes us 20 mins to drive to town from anywhere in Singapore...but over there it really depends where you live... from where i lived, which is Kent it takes bout 45mins to an hour drive to Seattle... then if you live really east of Washington state like town of Spokane...you might take at least 2 hours... everything is bigger...thats the bottom line... i can understand my bros feeling... but i know he will tune back really quickly.... he grew up here... he just needs time... haha one more thing...we both felt like sleeping after lunch... cos that was what we did over there...eat, sleep and shit lol... no wonder most american so fat lol... opps later Bush come fuck me lol... sian nothing to write liao...bye

I think I m coming back....

2005-07-08T11:52:00.000-07:00

Its confirm that i m leaving later tonight...more or less...just hope that i could get on or else i have to follow my dad back home after work...and its like 5am at night and i ll be stuck in the freaking airport for hours doing shit... from what i hear from him yesterday i think theres a good chance of getting on lol so i ll be reaching on the 11th at noon haha...i think me and my brother gonna spend a night with my Uncle in Taipei lol...hope we can find him with the instructions he gave me lol *Prays*... what the heck...i m coming home lol... gonna miss the beautiful amercian girls here, the nice summer weather and the good food lol... its gonna be two years before i can see them again...haha... oh its my life...what to do right? anyway, i m just wondering what will i be doing when i m back...party? meet up with my pals? Zhenhao, Ivans and Chiu lol not forgetting Elanie and gang lol... oh actually i cant wait to get home... dunno they got any programs lol... hope they have...whatever la... dunno my pay how much lol... ok la... my vacation is finally coming to an end... now its time to wait for my NS...haha lets not talk bout that first... later bye....

Fugging Hell

2005-07-07T10:46:00.000-07:00

What did i do yesterday?...lol I went shopping with my bro and his friends...lol there was Jonathan, Livia and Quank...i didnt really buy a lot of stuff, just a pair of flip-flops and some socks lol... there were a lot of stuff and south center mall but most of the stuff are too expensive... saw some very cool jackets, too bad Singapore is tooo freaking warm for me to buy them and i m sure its gonna collect dust... later we went to Jons place to play some basketball...boy did i feel old haha...havent been exercising for a while now...didnt think i could run that much...lol well i guess i didnt do that bad... plus the fact that i havent been smoking since i m here, i could catch my breath way faster lol...smoking does shit to your body man...dunno why i smoked oso...hope i can control myself not to when i get back home... cos in PA i cant smoke at all...well thats what i heard from friends...lol sigh... sway sia...my right ear loop like swelling sia... two days ago i already felt some painful growth at the corner of the ear loop liao...but didnt give a fuck la...but hor during basketball one of the guys hit me on the exact spot...fuck.... it hurt... then by the time i got back home...it was swelling like fuck.... one ear like buddas sia...boring sia... i think he irritated the growth ba...so i think its having a slight infection...i think must see doc liao... do it here or in Singapore leh? lol dunno wor...see how la but Singapore cheaper lo...fuck la...bye la...

War of the Worlds

2005-07-04T12:35:00.000-07:00

Went to catch War of the Worlds...omg...it is really a fantastic movie... there are special effects, great actors, supense and great story line... really i was glued to my seat... i had a blast, watching the movie... i highly recommend watching it... lol saw Bewitched, after that...Nicole Kidman... omg...very very beautiful...drools alot... yea it is a very funny movie... it aint that bad like the critics say...haha...i enjoyed it... it does really matters how people say its like... its how you look at it...so yea... didnt do much again yesterday... basically its really quite boring in Seattle... just eat, sleep and shit... unless you have a job or school... things might be better... but i have no friends here so i guess theres not much excitment going on... lol i m feeling very very lazy during my time here... its not a good feeling at all... i feel so useless...like haiz... i dunno... i wish i have a car here...so i wont have to wait for my dad to come back from work and shit... well, i could take a bus to where ever i wanted to go but theres no one to hang with besides my brother lol... too much of brotherly love for me, thats all i can say... hmmm maybe i could finish the book i bought... maybe this maybe that...ahhh i just need friends here... sian...maybe later..bye

A day in Portland, Oregon

2005-07-02T13:12:00.000-07:00

Yesterday dad wasnt working so he decided that we go on a road trip to Oregon, lol Portland... bout a 3 hour drive from here... yea it was kinda fun i guess... well not really...we set off late like 2 pm and man... it was so last minute that we had no idea what to do when we were there... so to me it was really a waste of time...in fact i think we should have planned what we should do like, where, when and how... you know and not just leave when we feel like it... what we did there? without a plan? hmmm we went down to downtown Portland...just basically...walked like lost bees lol...yea literally lost...taking a right when we felt like it a, left when theres no rights available...haha... had dinner there at a chinese resturant... yummy i should say... best chinese food i ever tasted in the USA... later, we took the local tram back to where we left our car... Rose Garden is where we left it... i think its the home for the NBA basketball team Portland Blazers... Rose Arena...yea i think thats their home stadium... ok so we head back home at round 10plus at night... think we reached home round 1230am...and we had supper at Applebee with Uncle Steven and Oscar lol... boy was i hungry lol... i think theres something wrong with me...lol eat so much but i dont seem to be putting on weight... ok take yesterday for instance.... i ate a value meal at subway at round 4... chinese food at round 830 with two servings of rice... and Applebee a chicken parmesan at 1230am... not forgetting the heavy breakfast i had- two servings of cereal, fruits, milk, coffee and some mini donuts... which was around 11am...haiz...think my tummy has a worm lol.... ok its a new day today...so lets hope for the best... haha...till next time...

Seattle day 16

2005-06-29T23:38:00.000-07:00

didnt do much today again... haiz...boring...woke up at 10 plus ate breakfast and after an hour or so i think i went back to sleep... lol lazy like fuck...woke up at round 1 plus 2 i guess and we went out for lunch...lol boring day i thought...but later dad dropped us at some arcade and we went to shoot some pool... and then later had thought that Livia could join us cos the more the merry right? lol so my bro called her and we hung out lol... caught a bus down to downtown Seattle...i really thought it was gonna be boring... but wasnt really that boring... we went to the Levis store, the Nike store and Addias... maybe i m too much of a mountain turtle lol....but i saw the biggest Levis store... imagine 3 floors of pure Levis stuff... damn... there were so many shirts, tees, caps, girls tops and of course jeans... i would have bought something if they werent closing in ten minutes... and the Addias and Nike stores were also huge both two floors as well..wow are they huge lol.... there are a lot of new stuff lol but they are really really expensive... and yea after some window shopping and dinner of cos... lol we went on home... and that was my day... hopefully tomorrow will be better...yawns...getting sleepy lol...

Seattle Day 15

2005-06-28T08:46:00.000-07:00

hmmm stayed home for a whole two days... didnt step out of my house for two days...god...what the hell is wrong with me? lol all i did was eat, sleep and watch cable... watched tennis omg...Maria Sharapova super hottt...loved the way she shouts...omg lol...drools...russian chicks damn....but other than that nothing much happened... besides my mom leaving for Singapore last night...didnt see her today so she should be heading home...and going back to work soon...hmmm my bro and i still thinking when to go to Taipei but we gottta wait for my dads answer bout the tickets..its staff one so cant confirm that quickly...anyhoe... great to see Ivan and Chiu together... finally, that chee bye can commit to her lol... haiz..but i could see them together la..just a matter of time lol.... Chiu is really cute lol and smart too lol NUS or NTU cant remember...lol and Elaine man...i gotta say Leos suck at love this season man...dont you think so? lol or maybe its just for us? maybe we should try hooking up cos negative and negative get positive lol...muahahahha... actually, i cant wait to come back... but sometimes i dont feel like coming back so soon... lol cock!! ok nth liao so later maybe? haha...

2005-06-25T15:14:00.001-07:00

Haha...funni....

2005-06-25T15:14:00.000-07:00

family at the falls

2005-06-25T15:12:00.001-07:00

Beautiful right...drools

2005-06-25T15:12:00.000-07:00

my new friend

2005-06-25T15:11:00.000-07:00

like fake sia but its real

2005-06-25T15:10:00.001-07:00

lil blue riding hood

2005-06-25T15:10:00.000-07:00

thats one big clock

2005-06-25T15:09:00.000-07:00

4 ppl pic

2005-06-25T15:08:00.000-07:00

Da falls

2005-06-25T15:07:00.000-07:00

dad is touching my fei zi

2005-06-25T15:05:00.000-07:00

Gift from dad...(fat hope)

2005-06-25T15:03:00.000-07:00

on Empire State Building

2005-06-25T15:02:00.000-07:00

New' sync

2005-06-25T15:01:00.000-07:00

stealing

2005-06-25T14:59:00.000-07:00

my brother...

2005-06-25T14:55:00.000-07:00

i m short...

2005-06-25T14:53:00.001-07:00

whats up my nigga?

2005-06-25T14:53:00.000-07:00

i was taking up his time...

2005-06-25T14:52:00.000-07:00

Osbourne..baby

2005-06-25T14:51:00.000-07:00

Peace

2005-06-25T14:49:00.000-07:00

us at the UN building

2005-06-25T14:48:00.000-07:00

me...happy

2005-06-25T14:47:00.000-07:00

bro and me and miss liberty

2005-06-25T14:46:00.000-07:00

Manhattan

2005-06-25T14:40:00.000-07:00

NYC

NYC/ Niagara Falls / Outskirts of Ontario

2005-06-25T04:31:00.000-07:00

Phew...finally i m back...what a trip man!!! what a fucking trip.... first of we arrived in NYC at bout 12 plus at night...although we left town during the afternoon but because of the time difference we yea....got there at that time... so we headed straight...the hotel.... and the next morning we headed for the day tour we booked online...lol OMG you cant imagine the amount of ppl there is in NYC... 8 fucking million ppl.... theres already a rush of ppl at bout 730am... can you just picture it? its like 10 times more ppl during a Saturaday afternoon on Orchard Road...yea the whole downtown was full of ppl.... and the city never sleeps you can walk till 3am or 4 there are still shops open and lights on... its OMG... you got to see it just to understand the massive amount of ppl flow lol... its like through out the day theres just mountains of ppl lol...we saw so many things the Statue of Liberty, Empire State Building, Times square, Madame Tusume(the wax thinge, world famous) lol... then it was our nature / roadtrip... lol got this rented car lol drove from NYC to Buffalo...too bad i couldnt drive because of some stupid rule they have in NY that only a 21 year old could drive...so yea my dad did the driving so...we did and for 8 hours... but we were kinda fast... i think we set off at around 5 and reached a town called Syracuse, NY for a nights stay and the hotel was wonderful... it was a family suite...great bed and bathroom...and TV...lol it was really nice..then the next day round noon we set off for Niagara Falls... well through out the road trip i slept most o fthe time..it was kinda my habit lol... we signed for this trip..to look at the falls from the Canadian and the American side on seperate days... the Canadian side was really better looking... we were nearer to the bigger fall.... and OMG!!! it was massive and again massive... it contributed to 10percent of the worlds freah water...you know...and the ppl there took 50 percent of the falls water to generate power...and its still so huge and massive...DAMN... from what i remember the falls is made up of 3 different falls lol... it was really beautiful to me...i didnt even want to take pics...i just wanted to stare at the falls...cos it was really beautiful... really...i would wanna bring a loved one there one day...lol and on the American side we got on a ship to the middle of the falls to get a up close view of it... and it was even more amazing from there... although, we get really wet and shit lol... but still i like it... the whole river from the falls to the lower side of the river...it was truly a wonder..thats why its one of the seven wonders of the world...lol then we rested for a while and went into Cananda again for dinner...lol it nice and cool lol... and over there i could drink...lol havent been drinking lol and we kinda walked around the downtown...and it was really nice... and the clubs there seemed so happening...all the ang mohs...omg...fuck too bad i m with my family... or else i ll be drinking my ass off... it was kinda boring in the end cos my bro wanted to take this boring ride, i think i was too old for it...wanted to shout but i was trying too hard so nothing came out lol.... finally, we rested for the night...and went off to NYC again cos we need to return the car and then we had kinda like 4 hours of time to kill...so dad suggested Soho or Chinatown lol... walked around with our lugguage and it was kinda boring and ewww for me cos i hate carrying stuff around esp with so many ppl around lol... then we went to the New Jersey Airport lol thou it was in another state but they were really near so it was really an issue..and after 4 hours of flight ..i m back here...lol i really liked the trip saw so much new things and wonderful experince...lol pics will be shown lol....later...bye

Seattle Day 5

2005-06-19T11:45:00.000-07:00

Went to my bros graduation lol Kent Meridian Class of 2005 lol.... everythings so formal...high school, the americans take it so seriously... lol where as our secondary schools have shit for our graduation...for my O levels graduation i think my batch even got a scolding for doing badly than the school expected...wtf?!!! lol anyway... you cant imagine how huge the thing is... they actually book timings from a stadium for it... i think if i m not wrong for the few hours i m there, there were 3 schools going there for their graduation... i feel that they actually acknowledge the students effort for the four years of education... and from my point of view the graduation is kinda nice... the students did most of the talking... that should be the way... its more interesting that way... they made presentation and closing speeches ...all very well done i should say...maybe because they are not as shy when it comes to speaking up...and omg the girl who sang the National Anthem...she was fantastic...her every note made the hair on my back stood up omg!!!...heard from my bro she might be going to American Idol next season..she can make it I know it she just need more training...lol ok then after that we went for dinner and then my bro and i went to watch Batman Begins...freaking cool show lol i loved it...now we know batman is a samuria lol...ok got to go to airport now for NYC...bye

2005-06-19T10:36:00.000-07:00

Graduation Ceremony

2005-06-19T10:32:00.000-07:00

bro and fren during presentation

2005-06-19T10:30:00.000-07:00

mom,bro and dad

2005-06-19T10:29:00.000-07:00

Rie n bro