Damn...opps i said a swear word...but i meant it lol... got to catch American Idol season god knows what...i simply lost track of that freaking show...but still it was an amazing show...hats off to the producers and everyone on that show...again, its been proven once again that the americans has more creativity and the freedom to produce a wonderful show...C'mon its a reality series...it is meant for them to exploit everything in it... the first auditions, i should say its the funniest part of the whole competition... they actually took all the lousy, off-tune contestants and remixed them into a Pussycat dolls hit- 'Dont cha'...hell!! it was so funny...i felt a wee bit of pity for some of them, that we are laughing at their bad and terrible out of this world singing or yelling for some...haha but after 3 seconds i thought what the hell?!... stop being so sympathic and act like i care...
I actually tried to recall if we did it on our Singapore Idol but i really cant remember if we made fun of our people cos i remember i did not laugh as much lol...hmmm but i think if we were to do this for Singapore Idol...we might get alots of complains on the forum of our one and only newspaper, The Straits Times...by some unhappy contestants, viewers with nothing better to do or just some cock buggers with letters like, why we not supportive about our people who has the guts to join and we are discouraging our people blah blah... but if you think about it if you are good...who will make fun of you? if you really went for some decent training before you even join. still, some cockster will be arriving for the auditions thinking that he or she can sing and be the next idol of the country, sad to say they usually get kicked out in less than 10 seconds and we will be spending the next one week laughing when we think about how hilarious and weird their singing was...muahahaha if any idol wannabes sees this, you might be pissed haha i dont fucking care...but hey without you the show would not even be a hit... if you can be famous why not be infamous right? lol
talent, talent, talent... we are still seriously lacking of it... our idol champion here seriously wont even last a day in the American Idol where everyone over there sings so much better. yah yah..you will say we are asians la, they more power la cos they ang moh...but look at Jasmine one of the contestants from the previous previous season..shes asian with some pan islander blood but still asian... she reached the top few...ok then you will say only one of a few ma... yea cos there is a smaller asian community as compared to the rest of the different ethnic groups over there... i truly believe we are all the same...we may be different in built and colour but with the proper training we can sing like the ang mohs can or do whatever they can...Yao ming is asian chinese to be exact but he can play in the NBA or Ji-Sung Park from Manchester United he is asian...but he has been playing with the ang mohs for a long time even our local hero Fandi Ahmad was once offered a place in Ajax and besides as you can tell from the show not all of the americans can sing... So all i want to say is we can never set a trend for the world to follow cos we are so small and our thinking is still so old-fashioned and we are so scared of taking risks... i believe we have the talent...unfortunately, we aint got enviroment for it to grow into something we as singaporeans can be proud of.

♥ 9:40 AM

omg its been such a very long time since i wrote anything on this pathetic blog of mine...lol hmmm what have i been up to? NS, GF, SCH and the cycle repeats itself...lol its 2007 already...omg thats very fast...this year is gonna be a good one i hope...finishing my ns this year gonna plan my trip to the States as well but all its in the last part of the year but i cant wait...now its just my school that i m worry about...constantly, telling myself that i must do well in my school but in the end i m just too lazy and i will defiantly do it in the last min when it comes to my exams...oh god...when will i stop doing this stupid, stressful and non fruitful thing...oh well, i guess a leopard never changes its spot...thats just me man... but how to succeed if you dont fucking work hard?...determination is what i lack and seriously need man...it all boils down to that...
2006...hmmm its been a great year really...known many new friends and did a lot of new things and most of all i knew my dear dear...wow its been exactly a year...we've been together for exactly for a full year...yesterday was our anniversary...wow... time flew by just like*blinks* that...but i would say we been through a lot...but this past year thought me a hell lot about being in a relationship...i should say it aint an easy job... lots of stuff to consider whenever you wanna do anything... sometimes, i really feel like just surrendering to the mighty power of love...lol and let things be....let natural take its course...its less energy wasting that way...i know i have more to learn and more will come...we will either go up a level or plunge right down...i dunno...but shes a wonderful partner...simply love her to bits but sometimes just feel like popping her head with my bare hands...lol tats love i guess...a total mix of all the feelings you can ever have or you never thought you had and feeling it all at once...lol oh gosh....but i love her and dear, i dont mind that you are fleshy...anyway, its just youre just built with bigger frame, not like our typical sinagporean girls who are relatively smaller size...of cos i want you to slim down if you can...its healthier and you can wear any clothes you wish....but i just like the way you are now...you are loveable in your own unique way...thats why i like you in the first place...thats why i still do now...you silly baby...so cute...*pinches her cheeks* muahhaha.... everytime, i think about us i would feel really sweet and warm...so nice to have you as my partner...i finally found a nice girl, who can relate to whatever i say and think... i really cant find another you...i really doubt it...all its 230am already...time to hit my sack...lol

♥ 2:00 AM