Hai...hows life? its ok...cos work sucks...always got to find transport for my bosses...you may think its a small thing, but its the begging of ppl thats sucky... i was taught to go bond with the other NS guys so my working life will be much easier...but i dont know...where got so easy? everyone got their own things to to...own life to lead... sometimes, when i cant do it, i feel i m a failure...it sucks really...i really have no idea what to do... hai...maybe i will try from now to bond with them so they can help me...cos maybe they think i only find them well i need them...which is bad...but thing is i never have that kind of thought, if i can i would never want to trouble them or whatever... God, please help me...
my tiredness has grown back on me... i m really tired... tired of just meeting the same person all the time... i really need my friends...i really need time with myself too... this sucks..i always think its all understood... but its seems its not... so i m feeling very fucked up...you cant have too much of something... fuck it...i m going out this week to have a drink...i dont want to feel like a fucking caged animal...fuck!!!
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