I know myself i m a crazy, goofy and crappy person... I need to talk all the time, well maybe not most of the time...But I wont like to have a quiet moment when anyones around me, unless i really hate the person or we really have nothing in common... i believe one can never remain slient forever he or she will go crazy... he or she may not be able to express the thoughts and feelings inside or worse no one will understand him or her...

I think i havent really been myself recently, maybe i m still feeling lost in PA... although, we are all still good squadmates, havent really gave troubles to one another but i havent really open myself up to the people around me... i always have a wall built when i m with new people or in a new enviroment...but this time it feels really different, i feel that the wall is much difficult to take down... i know sometimes its me with the problem... its either i find some of them too childish to talk to or i just cant be bothered to be involved...

Clicks are forming and they are getting tighter as the day goes by... i wanna be with the interesting ones but how? must i be interesting too? what if i m boring by nature? hmmm, i think i should really try hard to find myself back and take things lightly... thats the only way i can think of right now... i must find my inner peace and keep a clear mind...

Wow! the first half this entry really very stress sia... shakes head ok must keep myself happy... haha...but talk bout sway sia... last sunday had to do duty for the whole day 24 hours till monday it was fucking tiring...but whats worse i had to partner with Tommie Khoo our squads MC king... dont know he faking or is he for real...but through the 24 hrs i spent with him... i think he is really a mama's boy...i wanted to tell him off but dunno la i think hes not worth it... i kinda had the feeling that it was going to be hell when a part of my glasses fell out for no reason... and its like after spending minutes with that complaining bugger...

he is either coughing nonstop or saying he needs to shit...and he wants to find a clean toilet to go to... Kan ni na bei chao chee bye la... sighs... seriously, he was getting on my nerves and the things that came out of his god forsaken mouth omg!!! felt like slapping him... worst than the lamest things that i have to say... all this thoughts is really making me flare up again... so i wish him all the best and hopes he leaves PA for good...

Ok the rest of the week was fine... the best thing for me was that we were able to walk out...lol... at least theres the weekends to look forward to...lol ok nothing more to crap bout ....latas

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