Been a while since my last entry... been so busy with or maybe stuck in PA...either way i wasnt around my computer... the whole week was fine but the most exciting day i think was on friday, i got to shoot a revolver...omg!! my heart nearly came out...ok maybe its nothing compared to the M16 my army friends have... but hey!! that was all i got right?... although i did get marksman for the first frame which i m kinda shocked cos i thought i did badly... but i will try to get the hang of it the following times... i hope*prays*

ok anyways...last night, i saw two teenage guys just maybe 18, 19 years old holding hands in the public(cineleisure)... like couples yes!!! omg! i guess its fine to let people know bout your sexual preferance...but aint it a bit too obivious...?! ok maybe they wont gay...but logically speaking...guys?! would you hold hands with your male friends? i dont think so... i m not against gays, i do think some of them are really handsome and they do take care of the people around them...they arent bad people... but is the singapore society ready for guys holding hands in public? we are afterall still an asian country... homosexuality, i think is still something we have yet to embrace totally... i think even the western countries havent really accepted them too...United States for one, i dont think they accept gay marriage... its really a sensitive subject to touch on... i have seen guys holding hands its nothing new to me but it was only in gay bars and some bangala workers does that too.. i bet most of you seen that... yesterdays incident was kinda the first for me...

Singapores forever changing maybe 5 years down the road, we will all accept the fact that gay people have the right to display their love in public too... its still kinda freaky for me.. if it happens... guess i must see more of it and i will get use to it.. by then i might say hey! no biggy what...they love one another what! lol...

one more thing...lol i saw this really hott girl at merdian hotel's masterque last night...actually, i saw her walking to it with her friends while ivan, kenny and i were standing behind the busstop deciding what we should do cos we had bout 2 hrs before our started... i cant remember exactly, one of them said she must be going to play pool...lol and before that ivan was saying go play pool and i was objecting... cos all he ever does is play pool if we are out... but last night was different...lol... anyways, that girl was really something... its not cos i m in camp all the time and never seen girls for a long time... well, she is really pretty and the type that i liked... i think she is bout 168cm tall, long hair (a bit wavy, my fav) just above the waist, big eyes, nice smile and perfect teeth...(omg!!! i wish i had a friend like her) with a light green tee shirt and denim mini skirt...simple outfit but she looked wonderful, imagine how she would look if shes all dressed up? how i wish i was the que she was holding...lol... still, she dont have the typical look that most local girls have like rebonded hair all straight...it looks nice and soft and stuff but its really common and kinda unnatural to me at least...everywhere you turn you see it... anyway it just takes one thing to brighten up my day(night) and it was that hott chick... still kinda wish i went up to her... oh well... who call me ham ji...

sigh... going back to camp in 3 hours lol... how i wish the weekends is longer... lucky, theres two hoildays...and i ll be home... lol think bro is coming back from tekong too...lol omg baton test next week... ahhh!!! so many test even in NS... this is really singaporean style... tests and exams everywhere... all bout scores and doing well... wooo... book-in loh...

♥ 5:45 AM

Zouk has reopened... the layout is still the same...well, i really like the new decor and stuff... its more spacious over in Phuture and they have these cool seats which are shaped like our hands...nice pick i should say... the bar switched from the right to the left... its more open now, the air circulation is better... the entrance leading to both zouk and phuture has this UV wall and everything just brightens up the moment you step in... all and all its really nice but the drinks are still expensive...lol not much changes bout that... oh boy time to book in...actually got alot to crap bout but my brain just went blank lol... anyway later...

♥ 8:09 PM

I know myself i m a crazy, goofy and crappy person... I need to talk all the time, well maybe not most of the time...But I wont like to have a quiet moment when anyones around me, unless i really hate the person or we really have nothing in common... i believe one can never remain slient forever he or she will go crazy... he or she may not be able to express the thoughts and feelings inside or worse no one will understand him or her...

I think i havent really been myself recently, maybe i m still feeling lost in PA... although, we are all still good squadmates, havent really gave troubles to one another but i havent really open myself up to the people around me... i always have a wall built when i m with new people or in a new enviroment...but this time it feels really different, i feel that the wall is much difficult to take down... i know sometimes its me with the problem... its either i find some of them too childish to talk to or i just cant be bothered to be involved...

Clicks are forming and they are getting tighter as the day goes by... i wanna be with the interesting ones but how? must i be interesting too? what if i m boring by nature? hmmm, i think i should really try hard to find myself back and take things lightly... thats the only way i can think of right now... i must find my inner peace and keep a clear mind...

Wow! the first half this entry really very stress sia... shakes head ok must keep myself happy... haha...but talk bout sway sia... last sunday had to do duty for the whole day 24 hours till monday it was fucking tiring...but whats worse i had to partner with Tommie Khoo our squads MC king... dont know he faking or is he for real...but through the 24 hrs i spent with him... i think he is really a mama's boy...i wanted to tell him off but dunno la i think hes not worth it... i kinda had the feeling that it was going to be hell when a part of my glasses fell out for no reason... and its like after spending minutes with that complaining bugger...

he is either coughing nonstop or saying he needs to shit...and he wants to find a clean toilet to go to... Kan ni na bei chao chee bye la... sighs... seriously, he was getting on my nerves and the things that came out of his god forsaken mouth omg!!! felt like slapping him... worst than the lamest things that i have to say... all this thoughts is really making me flare up again... so i wish him all the best and hopes he leaves PA for good...

Ok the rest of the week was fine... the best thing for me was that we were able to walk out...lol... at least theres the weekends to look forward to...lol ok nothing more to crap bout ....latas

♥ 12:42 PM

Have you ever thought what is life all about? Whats the purpose of living? NO! this is not a suicide note. Haahaa... Like what are we living for? Money? Love? Or just to reproduce?
We are first born then raised and later if we are lucky we get to have our own kids. After all that we grow old and die. Thats the general idea of life right? But what are we suppose to do along the way? We go to school, get out of school or for some of us we drop out of school, then maybe we go out to the real world. We get stuck in the real world like forever, working for our three meals a day. As for some who are born with a sliverspoon in their mouths, they might have to worry much about money. Now for those of us who arent rich, we worry bout money - how much to spend? how much not to spend? Things like that bother us every other day right? I know money isnt everything, but we have to face the fact that we need it. We do live in a world where money talks and all else just walks. Opps I think I got abit off track here, back to the topic of the Have you ever thought of whats life all about? You know people as I was trying very hard to write all this shit, cos I have been thinking bout it for sometime now. But as I was writing, something just hit me like since we are already here we should just make the best of it. Enjoy the time we have in this world. Enjoy the beauty of this world. Enjoy the love of your friends and family. Enjoy the quiet time you have for yourself. As the saying goes time flies when youre having fun, so have have fun but if things are going wrong in your life, bear with it cos you know its all gonna be a part of life...

♥ 8:17 PM