Ok, the second week was alright I think, as for the training it was still tough I think especially after the weekend break. I was sleeping well on the first night back, woke up and felt like I only slept for an hour. As for the rest of the week I dint sleep well either...lol there was always this pain on shoulders everytime I wake up. Terrible feeling...but it goes away after the first PT session...lol two more weeks before the fit squad comes in. Gotta grab myself by the balls and bear with the boredom...sigh...
Well, its a saturaday evening, dont have anyway to go... or is it that I dont have the mood to do anything? I dunno what to do with my time, a drink with friends? A movie? Go club? What else can I do? Who can I go with? (shakes head). Who should I ask to go out? You think I should go out or just stay home and slack? Go out need money, need to know where to go...need to know what to do, need to know who to go with or else its gonna be boring... I'm thinking too much arent I? (nods) Actually I kinda want to drink, ok set...Go find people to go drink and relax...!
♥ 7:00 PM
First off... the very first week of my life in the academy, hmm... I think it was still bearable... in my heart i was constantly nagging bout the waiting... hey!! people I have not much flesh on my butt, sitting on the hard floor/roadside/road...my poor ass... the soarness... I'd rather be doing training, time pass faster this way. I'm still wondering bout the training I'm goonna have tomorrow... those FIs said last week was only a beginning to the shit we were gonna have...I guess we will see... I hope I can take it... Advice from friends was just to do whatever they say and have a positive thinking bout the training... endurence and tolerance... body still kinda soar... especially me arms... ok its time to go... and yes saw Elaine on friday and saturaday... Shout out: Hey sista you really got prettier since the last time I saw you... stay cool...see ya around... bye people...book in time lol
♥ 8:03 PM
haha going in like now... kinda excited and kinda sad cos...like i ll miss me bed and stuff... dont know PA inside how one...got policewoman in trainin not?..hmmm...dont think so...all guys...all rules... dont know how long to settle down...but one thing i m sure, time will fly by...lol
♥ 7:13 AM
When I first saw the ads on Rockstar INXS, I thought its just another reality series, thats lame with no depth what so ever... opps i did it again...judging a reality series by its cover... I think I only manage to catch the show from the 5th week or was it the 6th week(cant remember)... the contestants were wonderful...maybe more than wonderful... they were near flawless, perfect...some of the rendition they sang...oh my god!!! just let me know and I will be their fan...
I personally love Mig and Marty...I hope they would be the last two at the end of the whole season.... i can definitely see myself to be a fan if either of them were to go on to be the lead singer of INXS... Rock n Roll is really cool, come to think of it, Beyond- a band from HK was once my favourite band in secondary school... I was also introduced to Oasis and Aerosmith, oh my god Steve Tyler...hes da man!!! but its not until I was 17 that I switch to Mandopop and hip hop songs...maybe its something new to me and I admit that I was hooked to the catchy beats... actually I listen more of the English songs than the Chinese pop songs... cos chinese songs are more or less the same... all bout love... the main theme is always bout love...omg!!! lol... kinda got really sick...pukes... rock songs do talk bout love but they could also sing bout life, the world or maybe just a song with only the four letter word... lol... hip hop songs?..well its all bout girls and booze, basically just having a good time at parties, you know!! lol... some of the songs have no meaning at all... People just love the beat and the feel of it...ya know!?
Singapore should have more support for our local bands...Rock and roll, hip hop bands whatever... Mediacorp should really plan for some Rock and roll tv series or competition... something new not just bubblegum pop singing competitions... if the bands are really good... people are gonna give them support no matter what right? We've got an idol and a superstar already, why not a Rockstar?... maybe there might not be a big market here but everyone starts small...right? we might just find a rocking band that could reign over whole of Asia or maybe the world after a few seasons? or maybe not but we can still try... I mean the growth we have in music is more important than anything we might find right? its just a thought, but hey its music and it suppose to make people feel good while listening...and they could talk bout it after a certain gig... more local concerts with locally loved bands for locals or whoever...isnt it cool? then there will be another place for us to hangout...lol
♥ 5:38 PM
Actually, I should have wrote all this much earlier...but i was having second thoughts bout putting my feelings on the web again... cos the last attempt kinda screwed me up...plus i was lost and still recovering from rejection yet again...*sighs*
Anyway, I think from april till july of this year really sucked for me... why? all because of my navie thoughts bout love...haha..thinking that giving is better than receiving... during that time, i thought it was all gonna be worthwhile...Boy!! was i so wrong!! but now i can think clearly now, without all those love hormones clouding my mind...yippee...really guys!! i dont think theres another as dumb as me... knowing that the girl has everything else in her mind but me and i still do things for her and spend all my energy on her... fucking stupid... should have gave up the moment i knew i cant have to the chance to screw her...*shakes head* sorry to all those ppl who told me to give up and move on haha...i didnt listen... ok come to think of it, her attuide towards me, like she said has always been the same... (shall not go into the details or else this entry will be very long...)...but i was too convinced that she was playing hard to get... thats why i never stop trying to win her heart... dumbass move!!! on the other hand, it takes two hands to clap... if she would rejected me from the moment she knew that i actually liked her and shes still waiting for her ex boyfriend...and not continue giving me hope that something might happen between us...ok reasonable doubt, maybe she did tell me to give up... i think it wasnt firm enough, so i thought she was joking or just that she didnt tell me her true feelings, reacalling all the conversations we had, she was thinking most of the time, even if i talk bout my feelings or stories, she will change the topic back to her life...haha i think she wasnt interested in my life or my thoughts what so ever...seriously, i think it might change alot of things if i was pushed away hard or whacked hard...haha(i m those kind of people who has high pain tolerance)... frankly, i was really confused during those few months... it was really like hell for me... with all the images of the past few months flashing through my mind now, i m still feeling dumb for investing all those feelings... yes i admit...recently, i have been running away from any chance of meeting her... cos the very thought of seeing her again, we're still friends i guess...but it still kinda makes me feel uncomfortable and dumb, i know i dont feel as sad now as i do before, still the feelin sucked...and i hate it... i really wish she didnt know how i felt... and i never did all that shit to think that she will be touched...cock!! ok i shall never talk bout her anymore... shes as good as a closed chapter in history!
i really suck at reading signs from a girl... i can never know what shes thinking... if she has feelings for me or not...i m so fucking ignorant...god!! thats a skill to me or maybe its just common sense to some people... take my ex for example, my best friend told me she likes me... and i m like no way... how can she like someone like me?...so ugly and all the bad things you can think of... and he was like ok! lets wait and see... yea he was right... fuck right? not saying its a bad thing to like me...but its just weird how he knows all this... we only went out a few times for a movie and sms each other at times... ok maybe plus we bummed quite a few times before we went into a relationship...why she will like me just like that? funny right? its fate i guess... it didnt last either... like they say: hao ju hao san... oh yea i know i need to really open my eyes, heart and think if i really wanna read ppl not just girls... lol
I gonna stay out of the boy girl thing for a while... but if i ever like another girl again... you wont see me putting it on this site... unless shes already my girl hahah!!! i m gonna be hush hush bout it... lol who am i kidding...with two years of NS coming... havin a girl waitin for you is just a dream that might never come through... lol...hey this funny thought just popped up...when not in a relationship a guy will think bout girls, a girl might not think bout any guy... when in a relationship a guy will still think bout girls , whereas a girl just thinks bout the guy...lol think bout it people!!!
♥ 4:12 PM
Ok its going to be exactly, a week, seven days, 168hours, 10080 minutes, 6040800 seconds before i report to the Police Academy...*laughs* trying to make it seem like a long time... ok lets chuck that aside i m going whether i like it or not... oh well...
i think the biggest news now is Hurricane Katrina...okk maybe its an old news already...but i dont know...looking at the death toll just climbing, the number of homeless and the crimes... its hard not to think... imagine, its Singaporeans facing this kind of natural disaster...lol what am i talking about? if we were really in that kind of situation... most we would do it just whine about it on the newpapers or our Speakers corner... cos our PAP government would put everyone who protests in jail before you can say "Si mi tia ji?"," whats going on" in Hokkien... i dont think singaporeans will start looting stores or start scolding our prime minister on national tv... a tiny country like ours will stop working just like that, if anything big happens... i bet you... but in the states its different.. the US open is still going on despite the Hurricane... the rest of the country is still working... what to do? the States is a million times larger than us... lets just pray nothing will happen to our tiny little land... but it just hit me...will we have enough food if this ever happen? if we do how long can we last? if our lifes is affected... how long can we hold?... even the most powerful country is having such a hard time to recover from it... how bout us?... oh my just thinking bout it...!!! ok tummys making noise time to go for dinner...
♥ 7:50 PM
Ok maybe the title a bit misleading lol, maybe it wasnt that busy just more fun?... woke up round 12 plus lol...went for lunch with Zhenhao then what did we do after that? we decided it was a day to go blade, just the two of us like boring..so i ask my bro to tag along...and we were off... wah they it started to rain... not very heavy but it still kinda spoilts the mood, do you think so? but i havent gone blading for a long time, so afraid i will fall and land on my ass, as you all know i dont have much flesh over there so will be quite painful lol...lucky i didnt fall pheww.... ok so we bladed for an hour or so, i personally wanted to go longer lol... soon after that, we headed for Burger King... it was still kinda early like 6 plus so we were think where to go after that... and my bro said lets hit the gym... diao... gym leh... he scared i wont be exercising in the near future is it?... Zhenhao said ok too... so no choice, i was the only one left... we all went home to get our stuff and went to the gym... spent around an hour over there before it closed at 8... actually, the gyms quite fun coming out feeling tight and fit lol... maybe, must go more often...2 twice a week? lol but seriously, need someone to tag along or else i wont go lol... i rather stay home and to push ups lol... ok then later we still felt the day shouldnt end just like that, so i suggested KTV!!! frankly, i was a bit tired but still energetic... maybe stay home too long... and so we reach town round 10plus, sang till 2plus... Elaine came too... think i long time no sing so much... sounded like fuck... sigh...sad... still we all had fun...i guess lol... went to have some supper and we went home... tired sia... lol... sian la, going NS... bye
♥ 2:15 PM
Yesterday started out well... besides the pouring rain...lol, stayed at home for most part of the day...only went out in the evening... my bro and i went to Tampines for dinner, later played some pool with him...and Zhenhao join us moments later... didnt have much mood to play oso..cos they not my match haha... kidding la... anyhoe, we got kinda bored and decided to get ourselves drunk... so we called Leoel our long time friend for a drink... met up around 11plus and proceed to Zouk, got lost along the way but we managed to make it lol... actually we didnt want to club la, just wanted to have a few drinks and go home...lol but it was super packed even on a friday... so we had our shared of drinks and i puked,only because the long island tea had this effect on me when i took it all in at once... it was embrassing...arhhh!!! yea so after supper at Newton we headed home and thats the end of our night out lol...ok byebye oh yea btw i still feel Zouk has the best RnB ever...ZOUK RULZ!!!
♥ 2:47 PM
