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lay on me.
i'm who i am.

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I'm a guy who ONLY love life.
Oh yes, I love hangout with friends and drink myself silly too, :D

strike out.

I want king
I wanna be queen too

hate talking.

Cbox recomended, perhaps w counter.

usual exits.

my lover
my gay lover
my lesbian lover
my bi lover

my days and surely not yours.

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thank you and piss off.

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Wednesday, May 25, 2005

Didnt sleep two nights ago... totally no sleep... and when to work for a 10 hours shft... got home only at 11... why didnt i sleep? yea girl problems... but it wasnt all the girls fault, most of it was mine... and she msg me saying that she thinks she knows why i was feeling down...is it because of her?....then i got really really really mad that i totally blew her off when she told me she wants to talk... sigh... but later after i cooled down...i thought i must have hurt her feelings, i could have screw things up between me and her... i thought we wont even be friends... then i msged sorry msgs to her... praying that everything will be ok... and whats worst was my phone was totally flat...so once i finished work i caught a cab and went home... plugged in the charger and sat there and see if there was any reply from her... luckily got sia...or i wont be able to sleep for another night.... so i called and we talked... talked bout our feelings... and it wasnt as bad as i thought... seriously, i know what shes going through... thats why i didnt tell her like...hey i like u a lot...can u be my girl?... and i m so afraid that she knows...so i asked her friends if she knows but they are like maybe, i dunno all that crap... cos i thought things might change if i told her how i felt... we might start being weird...cos it happened to me all the time... you know? but ok loh... she let me down gently... she was really tactful... it was actually a rejection really... but from another point of view, she kinda made it sound like a errmz...a change of pace?... a jump to the next level?..i dunno but watever it is i m glad we r still friends and according to her we r good friends...lol but i really feel so so much better after i told her how i felt...but actually she already knew how i felt...like a long time ago... shes been reading me blog...how disgusting is that? and she told me she didnt... kaoz... but she did say her six sense(forgot girls had this power) told her that i wasnt willing just to be a friend... and she knows i m concern bout her, she knows i care... hey this isnt that bad, at least she knows i care... thats really more than enough... a guy cant ask for more...lol my hearts not hurting anymore... its actually beating now... lol ok gonna meet her for lunch later... i know its gonna be weird but i think its gonna be weird in a good way... lol i hope... ok no more shit to write... bye


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