heylo... arhh feeling awful, still having bad cough... coughing till my chest hurts... going to work in a few hours time, dont know what interesting things gonna happen today... i dont think anything will happen lah..what can happen in a freaking restaurant? hmmm Mummmy said we might be going to New York City in June!! OMG!!! Its me, my mom and my bro... i wish my dad can tag along as well, we are a family after all right? maybe i might bring this up some time soon... it might as well be the last trip as a family before i go to the army... i dunno, i think its a bad idea that the family is split into two, not that my folks are divorced or what... but it really does have an impact on the views of individual family members... So ppl never let your future or current family split into two... its always the kids facing the crap...and hey the kids are innocent ok? One things for sure, all parents love their child...very very very much... you can have a lot of bfs, gfs, husbands or wifes but you only have ONE MOM n DAD... but too bad many of us - Generation Y kids take our folks for granted one way or another, me included...
Me mom, talked to me bout my singing again, yes i did spent a few years learning it, but i still dont think i mastered the skill. there are still some or many aspects of it i cant figure out.. confidence, showmanship, the feel of the song... i m so afraid of making a fool of myself during auditions... but everytime i look at people performing on stage i want to be like them... been on stage a few times, so i kinda feel the power of singing in front of people... yes i know all the above is crap... i just need to take the first step and everything will fall into place... determination is all that i need... sigh... i m always lost when it comes to the things i have the passion for... i dont grab my chances...i always let them slip away... its bad very very bad... i always do things that i should not do... very impulsive i m... GOD!!! i Must always remind myself that i must think twice bout anything thing i do... I MUST THINK TWICE BOUT ANYTHING I DO!!!
OK on a happy note i wish i have a great day ahead lol... bye...later
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